THE DON'S MUSLIM THERAPIST

Saying goodbye to ceasar

Layla's POV
Two weeks passed and I blocked ceasar out of my life,not only him but Ali as well.He tried his best to please me,but I felt nothing for him.

All I cared about was reconnecting with Allah and slowly ,slowly I was getting there.I had stopped eating and had become thin.

Two weeks wasn't enough for me to bounce back.I was taken a walk when I suddenly got kidnapped.

I was brought to a mansion.Ceasar arrived.
Ceasar:dear why have you blocked me? I love you Layla
Layla:I love you too.

Ceasar:then why can't we be together? Look I recently converted to Muslim,so we can get married.
Layla: how I wish you converted because of Allah

Ceasar:him? The one who has allowed them to hurt you? Why do you still trust in him after everything?
Layla: it's because he created me.He is my protector ,my giver.

Ceasar:he caused you pain
Layla:but he gave me life.
Ceasar:a life to suffer?
Layla:we were never created to come and enjoy ceasar,we were created to worship him.

Ceasar:then is this how he repays you for worshipping him?
Layla: it's a test from him.If am able to pass it,I will get inner peace.
Ceasar: and if you don't?

Layla:am still going to get peace, because Allah is not cruel.He will never force his servant to do something that he cannot.
Ceasar:then why are you in a marraige you don't want? Look at you ,you are growing skinny,you look sick.All this for Allah?

Layla:yes.
Ceasar:then Allah is selfish, Because you are killing yourself.
Layla:he never asked me to do that,as I said Allah will never force his servant to do something that they cannot.

Ceasar:so Allah won't judge you if you leave?
Layla:no, because he knows it's out of my capabilities.
Ceasar:then why are you doing it?

Layla: because of my faith in him.Am doing this for his sake.
Ceasar: Allah said we Shouldn't harm ourselves,so then why do you do it?

(I became silent.He brought me some food)
Ceasar:I didn't only convert,I tried to learn more about Islam, it's beautiful but seeing your state made me doubt it,you staying is making it worse.And the interesting part is,Islam is not forcing you to stay.

If you leaving is what will bring you peace,then Allah won't judge you,but you staying and harming yourself, Allah will definitely juge you.because as you said,It is a sin to harm one's self.

I am not even interested in marrying you,as long as it will make you happy.If this makes you happy,then fine.I will send you home,but please try to eat.

(He fed me and brought me home.)

Ya Allah,give me strength as I have repented.Am trying to stay but I can't,am only harming myself, give me strength ya Allah.

Another two weeks passed,all I did was pray to Allah.He was slowly healing me but I realized that I didn't love Ali anymore,all I could think of was ceasar.