Remember Me (gxg)

26 : Pain

Noah's POV

"What the hell are you doing here Juliet?"

"Well nice to see you too"

"Answer the question"

"My family was invited"

"And you thought it was a good idea to come?" I ask her. I spoke louder than anticipated, I look around to see that a few people heard me speak rudely. "Come on" I grab her forearm. I can't believe she is here right now. This is the last thing I need, especially with Colby here.

I escort her up to one of the rooms, making sure no one sees us. I close the door behind me.

"This is a new side of you. It's different" she smirks.

"Things change" I tell her. "Now why are you really here?"

"I told you. My family was invited and I wanted to come to celebrate your grandmas"

"Cut the crap Juliet. You don't give a fuck about my family"

"Okay you caught me. I came here to see you" she admits. "I miss you Noah. I haven't seen you in three years"

"You are the one that left!" I yell at her with anger.

"I made a mistake, Noah" she answers.

"Well it's too late now"

"It doesn't have to be"

"What are you talking about?"

She walks closer to me, "What we felt for each other can be felt again. When I saw you at Russo's all the feelings came back. I miss you Noah. I miss our talks"

Her hands come up to the side of my neck. "I miss the way you kissed me, the feel of your hands on me" her hands start to move up to my face, "the way that you use to make love to me"

I grab onto her forearms, stopping her hands from moving further up, "That's all in the past"

"Are you saying that you haven't thought about me once since things ended? That you don't miss my touch"

"Of course I thought about you" she begins to smile. "But you broke my heart" her smile drops. I push her hands off of me.

"I loved you Juliet. You were my first kiss, first time, and my first love-"

"And you were mine" she cuts me off.

"But you hurt me Juliet. You hide our relationship for a year. I had to lie to my family about you. You made me feel like I was someone to not be proud of. Like I wasn't enough for you"

"Noah that's not what I wanted"

"Then why did you never tell anyone about us?" throughout our one year relationship Juliet didn't want anyone to know that we were together. I had thought it was because she wasn't ready to come out yet. It wasn't until a couple months after the breakup that I learned she was out to her parents and friends the entire time.

I spent months heartbroken when she broke up with me. She told me that we were on two different paths that weren't going to work because I was going to college and she was still in high school. I almost chose not to skip those years of high school just to be with her, but my aunt Stellan kept me on track.

When I found out that her not being ready to be out was not the real reason why our relationship was kept a secret I spiraled. All I could focus on was the hurt and anger I felt.

"It's complicated"

"Complicated? You kept me a secret for a year, lied about not being out, then broke up with me because I left for college is complicated for you?!" how is she still making this about her, "Do you have any idea what I felt? How horrible I felt about myself?"