Just Us

Chapter fifteen

As soon as I opened the door of the condo, I immediately wore my business smile. A girl who had bob-cut hair that emphasized her deep collarbone welcomed me. She is wearing her white asymmetrical white top with her super mini skirt. Her 38-A boob was parading in front of me while she was having a flirty smile.

I gulped, trying to not look down on her perky mountains. But seeing Sirene's hurt expression immediately washed away the temptation I was feeling.

Hell! I won't even want to hurt her or see her expression when I tell her I kissed a random chick in a bar.

I secretly took a deep breath and slightly brought the box of cake that I was holding while still wearing my smile.

The girl saw what I was trying to do making her chuckle, she even covered her mouth with her knuckles and laughed in a girly way.

"The box contained the caramel cake that you ordered yesterday, Miss. The picture that I sent you earlier was the design. Sinunod ko yung design preference mo about the cake, so yeah."

She parted her lips and her eyes slightly widened. "Woah chill," she laughed, when her hands reached for the box, I even felt how she softly caressed mine like permitting me. "I didn't expect that Cade Dela Cuesta who is known as a notorious playgirl is this serious."

She even took a step, a reason for me to take a step back but she didn't mind that, she took that as a sign that I wanted her back. She immediately eloped her arms on my chest, her hands were on my shoulders as I tilted my head. My heart was raging hard, sweats were forming bullets on my forehead. Bawat bukas at tunog ng elevator at mas dumadagdag ang kaba ko dahil baka si Sirene na ang nakasakay roon.

I sighed, reached for the girl's arms on my shoulder, and politely put it down as I smiled at her politely. "I am afraid that I won't like you very much if my partner sees you here, Miss. I accepted your order and offered to pick it up but I am not on the list to pick up...just the cake, Miss."

The twenty years old Cadence would freak out if she knew that her twenty-five years old her would take a girl out without fucking her senselessly.

Things you do for love, huh?

But the bitch isn't giving up. She smirked sexily. She leaned forward and to tell you honestly, her warm breaths were giving me negativity. I even felt her graze her teeth softly on my ear. "I am not a quitter. I'll get what I want and it's you that I have my eyes on."

Nasa ganoong posisyon kami nang biglang tumubog ang elevator, hindi pa ako nakahihinga ay lumabas na ang kanina ko pa hinihintay. Her eyes immediately found mine and a smile crept on her lips but when she saw the girl I am with, her smile slowly fade.

She gave a formal smile to the girl in front of me, her hands were in the paper bag she had. "Good evening, may I excuse myself. That's my room."

Hindi nito hinayaang sumagot pa ang babae at saka ito na ang nagbukas ng pinto at may pagmamadaling pumasok sa silid.

"You better go, Miss. My girlfriend is already here. If you wanna flirt, go to a bar and find someone who is willing. As for me, I'm not." I waited for her answer, I opened the door of our unit and I immediately saw Sirene leaning on the couch's backrest while her feet were scattered. I even saw how she took a couple of deep breaths before shaking her head.

"Hey, "I walked towards her but she didn't even move a muscle.

I held her hand and caressed it as I sat in front of her on the ground while trying to lock our gaze. "I'm sorry that you have to see those."

She smirked and fixed her way of sitting. She even crossed her legs and looked at me. "What are you sorry for? Because I caught you?" She shook her head and brushed her tongue on her lips. "What are you up to? Play with my feelings? You'll flirt and then babalik ka na parang walang nangyari?"

Mackenzie Sirene being mad is scary. My heart was pounding so hard that it hurt. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa dahil nagseselos siya o matakot sa maramdaman niya.

"Sirene," I called her out. Her expression is so stoic that I can't even name what is running on her mind. "Hey, please look at me." My hands were shaking, I couldn't even sense the familiarity of my voice because of its tone.

Fuck it, Amari, you're so fuck up! Nanginginig pa talaga ang gaga!

Tumingin nga siya sa akin pero halos lamunin na kami ng katamikan dahil wala siyang balak magsalita. I gulped and took a couple of breath.

"I fucked this chance, right?" I chuckled sarcastically. "I am so scared to fuck up because you are the only person that made me feel things... You made me want to love..."I nodded and smirked. "I wanted to be loved and to love you...kung papalarin, gusto kong mapasaya ka...gusto kong makasama ka. Lahat ng bagay na hindi ko naisip na magugustuhan ko, nagustuhan ko dahil sa 'yo. I don't want this chance to blow up.

"But who am I, right? I am the playgirl Cadence Dela Cuesta, kahit yata anong pabango ko, I can't change the past...kahit gustuhin ko, hindi ko kayang baguhin, that's why I am building my image for you...and for myself.

Gustong-gusto kita, Mackenzie Sirene and I am so serious about you. 'Yon ang totoo. I know that I needed time to build your trust and I am willing to just please, don't cut me out. I don't know if I can feel it with another woman."

I saw her nod. "Then, yes," she whispered, almost inaudible, hindi ko na makita ang mga mata niya dahil nasa hita na niya ang nga iyon.

Yes what? My mind was haywired. Nakatitig lang ako sa kaniya habang nakaupo pa rin sa sahig at hawak ang kamay niya.

My brows furrowed, and questions started lingering in my mind. "W-what do you mean?"

I saw how she licked her lips and heaved her chest before placing her eyes on me.

She nods again, puckering her lips. "I'll be your girlfriend."

Hearing those four words in a sentence, I thought I'll be happy. Gusto ko, oo. Pero hindi sa ganitong paraan.

Napahawak ako ng mahigpit sa kamay niya ng ilang segundo bago ko iyon pakawalan. I licked my lowerlip before standing up.

Nakasunod ang mga mata niya sa akin. Nangunguwestyon ang paraan niya ng paninitig. "Aren't you happy?"

I was looking at her, asking God if He could at least redo the things that I did. Erase all the negative quotations of my name. Delete every memory that I am not proud of.

Kung alam ko lang sana na makikilala ko siya, if only... I know that I will meet her in this lifetime, sana...

"If being your girlfriend will erase all the negative feelings and doubts, then I'll be your girlfriend now."

"I wanted to be your partner. I wanted you to be my girlfriend, seriously. Heck! I am imagining how many butterflies on my fucking stomach will fly if the time comes."

"Then why?" She pointed to my expression, my unreadable expression. "Ayaw mo na? Nanawa ka na? Is that it?"

Oh god! I would love to have been I have been dreaming since the day that I confessed that the day would come. Pero hindi sa ganoong paraan.

I don't want her half-ass yes. Kasi hindi lang yung 'oo' niya ang gusto kong makuha. I want her love, loyalty, fidelity, and trust... I want all of that.

I only stared at her stretching my lips sadly. "There." I chuckled. "I am serious here. I am taking everything seriously Mackenzie Sirene and like I said, I wanna be your partner that you'll depend on. I want to be the someone that you will give your full trust... I wanna earn it. You are not ready for the commitment. Masasaktan lang natin ang isa't isa because of doubts that you have for me that I can't blame. I want to redeem myself and I hope that I can finally rewrite your prejudice against me."

I am risking everything so I will not ruin it. I will get her trust.  And when the time comes that I know she's ready, I will never let her go. I am making sure of that.

Love sucks? Well, maybe it is. But it can also suck the juices within you. It's  tastier to suck the juice of the person you love and cherish.

I grinned on hat talked and shook my head.

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