Just Us

chapter twenty-two

Being with my family somehow calmed the anxious and consternation nerves that I have. It is comforting as feeling the warmth of the people you know that can't leave you.

"Want me to accompany you, ate Cade?" Liam, son of Tito Shymone asked. He was holding the car's door while waiting for me to get out on his car.

He looks extra dashing today, making me think that he has some thing to do or probably date because of his strong manly perfume.

I smiled and shook my head. "No need Liam, I can manage. You can now go to Cale, she was probably waiting for you," I teased. I saw how he tensed before he blushed that made me laugh.

Kids.

Well, base on Kennedy's story, Cale was the unflavored child on their parents. That kid didn't have anyone aside from the friendship that she had with my cousins but apparently, her twin came and it turns out that she is the one Riverdale is waiting since he was a child. So, I am still grateful that I am well- supported and loved.

Ang laki rin ng ipagpasasalamat ko dahil nakita ko to. That in this crucial and cruel world, I am not alone. There are people who are willing to share their strength to protect you in any kind of pain and somehow I realized that I lacked the capacity of telling my family because they showed me how they love me. How the pain that I am feeling can cause them the sadness that I don't want to happen, so I hid it.

Hindi ko sinasabi na mali yung pakiramdam ko at ipinaramdam nila pero alam ko na kung paano ko aayusin yon. I know how to deal with my future child's emotion.

And somehow, I felt blissful. I am calm. Walang mabigat na pakiramdam sa tuwing naiisip ko ang salitang 'pamilya', it was more fulfilling than fear.

I clasped both of my hands and put it near my mouth to blow while I'm standing outside our unit. I double checked my feelings or even tripled it because I don't want to give her a mix signal. I don't want to step back if I started to move forward for her.

Hindi ko pa napipindot ang pincode sa pintuan ay kusang bumukas ang pinto ng unit namin.

Warm hug, iyon ang bumungad sa akin. Ramdam ko ang init ng hininga niya sa leeg ko. Sa ganoong kaikling segundo, I felt home. It was the warmth of the home I was feeling and it gave me chills that is so good to feel.

"I miss you...so much," she said, mumbling.

I gently pulled her away from me before holding both of her arms, I am making sure that my eyes are on hers. "Sorry kung natagalan."

Her lips curved downward, she punched my arms jokingly before wiping her lone tear that maybe dropped off earlier when we were hugging.

Pero ilang minuto lang ang lumipas nang sumeryoso siya habang nakatingin lang sa akin.

"I dream to have my future with you."

"The mantra that I have will be void now...because I want it." Those words came out naturally. Walang pagpipigil o sakit akong naramdama. It was the genuine feeling I have this very moment. I want her and her dreams. "I want to build a family with you. Fuck other people, I would just communicate well with the little version of you."

Hindi ako nakapag-react nang mabilis niyang nasapo ang panga ko at saka sinunggaban ng nag-aalab at agresibobg halik ang labi ko.

Her lips taste sweeter. A muffled grunt came out from my mouth as she sucked my lower lip. Her lips went to my cheeks, wet kisses were given as she slightly sucked it before going to my earlobes. I unconsciously bent my neck to give her more access.

The pleasure was leisurely spread through my system. I just closed my eyes to fully feel as my hand started its job tardily.  I begun to open her white dress polo, nagsimula sa pinakababang buttoned hanggang sa maabot ng kamay ko ang balat niya.