Just Us

Epilogue

"Girl, ano na! Ang bagal-bagal ah!" Kennedy was watching me bored while I was watching my stylist fix my make-up.

I looked at them apologetically and they just smiled and resume what they are doing.

I am looking at myself infront of the mirror.

Gone with my flowy wavy hair, my hair now is on a bun with shimmering head dress. The gown that I am wearing screams elegance.

It was a mermaid-cut white dress that filled with diamonds and white stones. It perfectly shaped my slender body.

Today is the day...our wedding day.

My chest was weaving so fast but it is good feeling. I am marrying the woman that I always dream.

"How's the venue? My baby? Is she dressed up na?" Chelsie Maliah is a bit brat. She always wanted me to fixed her outfits and dress, so I am not nervous if she is now prepared.

Kennedy smiled and winked at me. "I am the one who took care of the baby, of course she is well presented..."

I didn't expect that Ken and I would be so much close. Actually, we are closer than she is with her cousin and the playgirl was really affected by it saying that I didn't love her and let Kennedy steal me from her.

When the make-up artist is done, they bid their goodbye and the room we were staying reigned the silence.

"You know what ate Cade is a bit harsh to herself." She smiled as she was looking nowhere, it is like she is remembering it. "I am aware that she isnt comfortable with the family but I didn't say a word because it was her right to feel but I also wanted her to reach out because love is love... What Tito Kirnon and Tito Kyler had is never wrong... I wanted her to realized that and start embracing the love that she could enjoy and feel. Kaya nung nakilala ka niya, I am greatful that she has that opportunity to feel the love because all people, disregarding the gender deserve the four-letter word that makes our world go around."

Kennedy and I didn't take an hour waiting because the wedding organizer knocked on the door already, kaya naman tinulungan na ako ni Kennedy na ayusin ang gown ko.

We are here in Spain, we wanted to go around Europe for our honeymoon so we decided to we'd here in Spain.

We rented a wholw hotel here in Spain kaya halos walang tao at guests ang nakikita habang nilalakad ko ang papuntang garden.

Unti-unti nang bumagal ang naglalakad ko nang natanaw ko na ang pinto na sarado sa garden area.

My parents walked towards me as they have their wide smiles. "I'm happy for you."

Dad covered my hands that was holding mom. Nakita ko sa gilid ang pagpasok ni Kennedy sa loob ng garden kaya naman unti-unti na kaming lumapit papunta roon.

We stayed for a couple of seconds in front of the closed door before it finally revealed the whole place.

My eyes started to get heavy when the  familiar music accompaniment played while I start walking down the aisle.

Cadence Amari is waiting for me. It was like a real church wedding. Her family have welcoming smiles kaya hndi ko na napigilan ang luha sa mga mata ko na unti-unti ng tumulo.

My eyes landed on her, she was patiently waiting for me in the end and God should forgive me if all I wanted right now is to run and kissed her.

Siguro ay ayaw na akong pagmukhaing sabik ni Lord dahil naramdaman ko na lang ang marahang paghawak ng pamilyar na palad sa akin.

We are now here.

"Alagaan mo ang anak namin, ah." My father has his warning voice but I know that he was being playful now. "Pati ang Sutil na bata."

We chuckled as our eyes fixed on the girl who was smiling widely while watching us.

When she noticed that we are looking at her, her smile widen and we can see from here that her eyes are now twinkling. "I love you Mama, mommy!"

Natatawa naman kami ng takluban na ni Kennedy ang bibig ng bata saka mahinahong sinaway.

The ceremony didn't last long and we are now facing each other, holding each other's ring.

"You know what I like things that is easy because growing up, it was hard for me...it was hard to keep myself smiling even when the kids at school making fun of the family that I treasured so much so I promised myself that I will love a man and be normal in the eyes everyone...but apparently it didn't happen. I'm gay...I'm lesbian so I tried to push everyone away... to just settle for my pleasurable ways until you came... It was all a set up in the beginning but I started to think about you a lot... Maureen even made fun of it and I am deeply annoyed..." Her faced darkened when she glanced at Maureen's direction. "How dare she making fun of the things that is starting to be serious for me.

"I am indenial... I tried so hard to resist because I am afraid that I can't give the dream that you want pero mas nakakatakot pala kung mabubuhay na wala ka...you gave me hope and dream of a lifetime, bub... I will forever treasure every moment with you and our little princess. I will love you from better or for worst...for richer or for poorer...til our God finally asked me in heaven... Mahal na mahal kita at pipiliin kita hanggang dulo."

I felt the cold rim of the ring before she put it in. I am just watching how she glide the ring and now she was looking at me.

My turn...

"I have a secret." I chuckled as her eyes widen. "I have a crush on you kaya nung nalaman kong naghahanap ka ng apartment, I asked Maureen to recommend my unit... Actually, I didn't know the things about you, but I like you because of course who wouldn't like a Dela Cuesta genes. Aaminin ko, I got a bit turned off when I realized what play are our playing pero hindi ko alam kung bakit  mas ginusto kong mapalapit sa 'yo...and I did... I tried to get your attention and I succeed..."

I got a silly crush on her but I can't. My parents isn't aware of that. My sister was now dead because of her sexual identity and knowing how my parents didnt tolerate her, alam ko na agad ang mangyayari kapag pinagpatuloy ko.

But my parents changed, they are now open with the third sex. They always remind me to talk to them and be easy to people who are in third sex and I know now that they can support me.

"So ayun, I promised myself to make you fall in love...to make you believe that you deserve to love regardless of gender...you deserve the family that will love and cherish you...that will heal your wounds from your trauma and I will gladly do that for you."

I wanted a family for the both of us, hearing her say that she can't give it to me and I must look for a man is too painful to hear. What's the essence of my dream if I can't be with the person that I love.

"I promise to live the best life with you and Chelsea... To cherish every single day of love until we turned gray... Mahal na mahal kita...at pipiliin kita kahit sa panahong wala ka ng lakas para piliin ang sarili mo."

Our eyes are both swelling red as she pulled me to meet my lips. It was surreal as I heard claps from the beginning until I no longer hear it as we continue exchanging of salivas.

Our eyes were close, feeling the kiss before she stops and just rest our forehead together.

"Congratulations! You are now married!"

Love is love... We can't dictate the heart about who will be our partner or the person who would we want to spend our life with.

Kapag tumubok ang puso, iyon na iyon. Regardless of gender, age or even language. No barrier can hindrance the true desire to be one.

And I am proud to say that I swing this way...

This lifetime or in another, I wanted to share my life with her...with my wife...

Cadence Amari Dela Cuesta.

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