Love Game (Book 1)

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Nagpalipas kami ng gabi sa orphanage, hapon na rin kasi nung dumating ako dito at malayo rin ang byahe. Habang nasa kwarto kami ay walang tigil si Austin sa paulit-ulit nyang mga tanong sa akin.

"Ok ka lang ba? May gusto ka bang kainin? Sure ka bang comfortable ka dito?"

"Ano ka ba wag ka ngang mataranta dyan, hindi pa 'ko manganganak noh!"

"Ahm...sorry hindi ko lang talaga mapigilang magworry. I'm really sorry Malorie."

"Stop saying sorry. I was at fault too."

"Nung gabing yun...wala ka ba talagang natatandaan na kahit ano? Kahit yung...sinabi mo?"

"Ahm...anong sinabi ko?"

"Sinabi mong mahal mo 'ko, so I thought
gusto mo rin yung nangyari satin. You know, that was the best night of my life dahil sa wakas narinig ko na mula sayo ang mga salitang hinihintay kong marinig pero hindi ko akalain na wala lang pala sayo yun."

"Ahm..."

"Malorie, please marry me. Pakakasalan kita hindi para maglokohan lang tayo kundi dahil mahal kita at ikaw lang ang gusto kong makasama for the rest of my life lalo na ngayon na magkakababy na tayo. Hindi ako papayag na lumaki rin sya na walang buong pamilya."

"Sa tingin mo ba gugustuhin kong mabuhay din syang magisa gaya ko? Nung malaman kong buntis ako, I really don't know what to do. Sobra 'kong nadisappoint sa sarili ko dahil kahit kailan hindi ko naisip na mangyayari din pala sakin ang nangyari kay Mama. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanila lalo na kay Natalie and the worst thing was...I really thought that I've already lost you. Then I made the most stupid decision na sobra kong pinagsisisihan ngayon. I almost killed our child Austin at lalo lang akong nagalit sa sarili ko dahil dun. After kong pumunta sa simbahan kanina parang may biglang nagtulak sakin na pumunta dito and I didn't expect na makikita kita sa lugar na 'to."

"Don't you think you're bound to find me here? Maybe what happened today was heaven's way for us to be together. Look, I'm really sorry for causing you so much pain and trouble. Kasalan ko ang lahat so don't blame yourself.  Malorie, I know I've been such a jerk but believe me since I met you, everything about me suddenly changed at isa na dun yung perspective ko sa buhay. Kahit alam kong sa simula pa lang laro na ang lahat sumugal pa rin ako sa'yo. Hindi na mahalaga kung matalo man ako dahil para sakin yung makita at makasama lang kita panalo na 'ko dun."

"Sorry Austin, I'm willing to work with you pagdating sa magiging anak natin but I can't marry you."

"But why? Pwede mo ba 'kong bigyan ng magandang dahilan kasi hindi talaga kita maintindihan. Ano ba talagang kinakatakot mo?"

"I know you wouldn't understand."

"Then make me understand, Malorie! Why does it seems like you're no longer the girl I have fallen for? Nasan na yung Malorie na walang inuurungan at kinakatakutan? Why can't you just admit your true feelings for me?"

"Dahil simula pa lang mali na ang lahat sa atin. Mahal ka ni Natalie and I can't just ignore her feelings. Having a child with you would be too much for her what more if I marry the man she loves?"

"So that's it? Dahil kay Natalie? Bakit, sa tingin mo ba kung hindi maging tayo I would end up with her? Well I'm telling you, if it's not you then I would rather be alone forever. Don't get me wrong, I love Natalie but not as much as how I feel for you. I've already settled everything between me and her, she has nothing to do with this anymore. Don't make anymore excuses, it's just between you and me now. So tell me how you really feel about me and for once, can you just be true to yourself?"

"I..."

I don't know what to say. I know he can't take a no for an answer. This time, he wants me to finally take things straight pero hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ko magawang aminin sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko. Kung hindi ko masasaktan si Natalie, would I still hesitate to admit my true feelings for him? I really don't know. Siguro nga may mas malalim pang dahilan 'to at hindi ko rin talaga alam kung ano yun.