Dark Horses

Chapter 57 - Please set me free.

"So how was it?" Mew asked as he walked into their bedroom's bathroom with a broad smile. He wore his black and brown pajamas and his hands in his pockets, admiring the beauty in front of him through the huge mirrors. He understood that if he needed this to be the most important part of his life, he needed to trust and be more giving than he was. He never wanted to lose Gulf again, he can't even imagine going through something like that again.  He was just happy that he had what he has right now, the love that holds his heart so preciously like he never did. 

Gulf was lost in thought and snapped right after Mew's question, "It was fine, we just had some coffee and caught up with some few things, workwise" He said as he looked as Mew snaked his arms around his soft waist and kissed his shoulder. Gulf smiled with love, he really loved this man, but...

Mew moved his hands around his waist and smelled Gulf's neck, kissing him softly as he moved around his aroma. Gulf signed and closed his eyes, he loved his touch. Mew started kissing his neck, and his shoulder, pulling his loose shirt to the side, kissing more of his smooth soft skin, his hands grabbing his waist pulling him back to his groin, feeling his hard dick grinding on Gulf's soft molds. Gulf moaned and craned his neck to the other side, exposing his neck for more kisses, Mew nibbed his neck, leaving marks on his skin, whispering " I love you so much, baby"

Gulf lost in his touch, moaned hard as he ground against his hard dick, he was leaking precum, wanting his partner so bad, Gulf's hands touched Mew's cheek as he kissed his neck passionately. He looked at the mirror through his hooded eyes, as Mew kissed his neck and the ring on his slender fingers, his realization came suddenly, and he slowly widened his eyes, He proposed to me, we are gonna get married. How? I can't. I can't marry him this away. it will destroy him completely. 

Gulf pushed away suddenly and stepped away, feeling disgusted by the thought. Mew froze looking at him in shock, his hands still in the air. 

"What's wrong?" Mew asked worriedly

Gulf closed his eyes in sadness. 

"I'm not feeling it today. " 

"Why? Did I do something wrong?" Mew asked worriedly as he walked closer

Gulf walked away from him, "No, it's not that. I just don't feel like having sex" 

Mew pouted, maybe he was not in the mood, but he was right in the moment, what happened, what did I do wrong? he walked towards the bed and saw Gulf removing his earrings, Mew gave a pouting smile and hugged him from behind, "Mew, I told you-"

"I know. Just hug?" Mew said in a low voice.

Gulf's heart sank, and hugged him, "Yes." his tears pooled in his eyes. 

"I need to talk to you about something," Gulf said quietly. 

Mew pulled away and held his soft hands, "What is it?" searching his eyes and saw eyes filled with tears, "Hey... what's wrong. What happened?" he cupped his cheek and wiped his tears with his thumbs.

Gulf sat on the bed and made Mew sit as well. 

"I need some time. " just one sentence that broke Mew's whole silence.

"What, why-what - " Mew's heart was sinking second by second. 

"Listen to me, please... "Gulf insisted. "after the whole episode of Pam, tar, Lhong, the blood, the violence, everything.." He signed. "It is too much for me, and I'm always scared that you will be arrested and our life will be over.."

"Gulf. Nothing is gonna happen. General has freed me!" Mew said unamused. 

"I know, but I know for a fact you haven't stopped your blood business. " Gulf said in a whisper with tears.

Mew breathed hard. 

"Have you?" Gulf asked with tears. 

"I need to take precautions. I can't stop all of a sudden. It's about our lives! I haven't dealt with anything remotely dangerous. But the existing will take time to cease-"

"Have you?"

"Gulf, you need to understand-" Mew losing his patience.

"Have you!!" Gulf shouted as he stepped up and pulled away from Mew

"No. " Mew breathed hard. 

Gulf signed and wiped his tears, "I need to leave..."

"What. Absolutely not-" Mew stood up with anger, "Don't act like a kid, we can talk about this. We are gonna get married, for christ's sake! and we are supposed to build a life together! And you wanna rip it apart before it even begins!" Mew snapped at him in anger.

"I can't live with you, Mew" Gulf said as he cried. 

Mew softened and touched his cheeks, "Talk to me, baby. This is not you. I have no idea what's happening. Please talk to me. Tell me what is it. I will do anything you want! Okay! Fine! you want me to end everything! it ends today! It ends now! Done! Okay?" 

Gulf held his hands on his cheeks and kissed him one last time, these words were breaking him more than ever, just say it gulf, you have no choice, "It is not the business. It is you...I can't see you.. and if I can't see my Mew, I can't love you, I can't stay with you.. Every time I see you.. I see the blood, the chaos, I'm Sorry -" he cried furiously as he stepped back to walk away.

Mew held his hand as his tears went down, Gulf never saw him cry. Just the one time, back when he had let me go. 

"You must understand, that this time, you're leaving on your own, on your will and if you leave this house, you're leaving me. " Mew said with a stern voice with tears. His heart was breaking a thousand pieces. 

Gulf cried with him and pulled his hand away softly. I love you, Mew, so much.

Gulf walked away from their house. Mew stood there in tears, fierce, betrayed. 

He walked away from the mansion, wiping his tears, keeping a straight face, and drove back to his place. He didn't have a choice. He couldn't do this to Mew. He needed Mew to hate him for him to move on. 

"So, what did the Doc say?" Mild asked with confusion.

Gulf sat silently in shock. He preferred to keep this to himself. 

"Um, just a few precautions. Medications. Nothing serious. " Gulf said back.

"Oh okay. So how is it going between you and Mew?" Mild asked with a smirk.

"All good, I guess." Gulf smiled.

1 hour earlier:

"Are you sure Doc?" Gulf asked with worry.

"I'm sorry Gulf, but you do have cancer in stage 3."

"What, but you said we could remove it through surgery!" Gulf exclaimed.

"I did, but the next test shows it has been affected in other areas as well. We can't take a risk, Gulf. Surgery can fail. You need to start chemo as soon as possible. "

The doctor showed him the reports and Gulf was shocked. 

Gulf drove as he cried, I'm sorry Mew. I'm so sorry!

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a new chapter, don't be mad at me.