Complexity

First Glance

"I'm Xinyu, nice to meet you!"

I could hear everyone welcoming me. It's my first day at a new school, in a new country, new class, and new environment. Everyone greeted me friendly. They want to be friends with me. But there was 1 person who didn't greet me. No. She didn't even see me introduce myself. She positioned her head still lying on the table, as if she was sleeping, as if she hadn't slept last night.

"You can sit over there," said my homeroom teacher, the seat in question was the seat next to the person who seemed to be sleeping. After I took the empty seat, it was true that she was sleeping. Or is it just my thoughts because she doesn't even care about me sitting next to her.

"What is wrong with her?" I said quietly because I was sitting next to her. I don't know whether she was sleeping or not. If not, should I introduce myself to her?

"Hi? I'm Xinyu. I hope we can be friends" I said while giving her my hand to shake but she remained silent with her head on the table. Just as I was about to pull back my hand, she got up and looked at me.

"I won't be your friend" and she immediately left to who knows where.

"Strange" The lunch bell rang and I followed my classmates to lunch. During the way to the canteen, many questions were thrown at me, one of which was why I moved to this country and I couldn't answer them one by one.

Arriving at the cafeteria, I looked around but I didn't find the figure sitting next to me. So I just sat with new friends whose names I believe are Yeonji and Lynn. We eat while chatting. Sometimes Nien comes and tells strange jokes where I choke several times due to her actions. I almost finished my food, then I realized that the girl sitting on the bench next to me was eating at the end of the canteen. I continued to look at her until Nien returned my attention.

"What are you looking at?" maybe she found out that I look to the girl a little bit too long.

"Sohyun always like that" Her name is Sohyun? What a beautiful name.

"Does she really like being alone?" Kotone nodded confirming my words.

"Since the beginning of high school, she chose to be alone, always. Maybe because of something? Trauma maybe?" trauma? It must be hard for her.

"You don't want to ask what the trauma was?" I shook my head while drinking my water.

"If it's really traumatizing, let me ask directly to her."

Or she tells the story herself

My days at the new school were very enjoyable. I met a lot of new friends. They want to be friends with me even though I am a foreigner. Even so, I still haven't been able to get to know Sohyun. I was still confused about why she behaved like that, until finally I chose to follow her. She was in strange places. Like a warehouse, roof, back garden, it could even be in the school next door, like who knows how.

When she was in the warehouse, I quietly followed her until I stopped in front of the warehouse door because I heard the sound of a guitar playing which was very beautiful, but I could feel it was very painful. It was as if she was crying while playing the guitar. I peeked through the window and could see she was really enjoying playing the guitar. And honestly, she looks really beautiful. I don't know what I thought, but she is really beautiful.

I have to get to know her.

I kept watching her playing the guitar. In between playing the guitar, she stopped for a moment to write something in her notebook. I'm increasingly curious about her but I'm afraid to meet her. I still don't know what trauma Kotone means, so I'm hesitant to approach her. What if the trauma was a stranger like me?

"Maybe another time," I said as I walked away from the warehouse.

I don't feel lonely at this new school. I'm just a new person who has to fit in, so I don't feel too lonely. Seeing so many students playing with each other, reminded me of the old school where I often played with them. But because of something, my family had to move country. Honestly, I miss them, but here I am. In a new environment.

"Thinking about something?" I turned towards the voice and there was a female student sitting next to me. She offered me the snack she was eating which I refused because I was still full.

"Are you the new kid?" I nodded and she held out her hand.

"Nakyung" I shook her hand while saying my name.

"Mixing in a new world is hard, isn't it? But you'll be fine here," I just nodded.

"I want to ask, can I?"

"hmm"

"You know Sohyun?"

"Sohyun? Park So Hyun?" I just shrugged my shoulders because I didn't know her surname.

"If it's Park Sohyun, I know her. what's about?"

"Does she really like being alone like that?" I looked at Nakyung, who had now finished her snack.

"From the start of school she likes to be alone like that?" I asked her again which ended in Nakyung glancing at me confused.

"How did you know that from the moment she started school she was like that?"

"Kotone told me" Nakyung nodded in understanding.

"Yeah... there are things she doesn't want to feel anymore. So she shut herself away."

"How do you know??" Nakyung shows her student council badge.

"I'm a member of the student council. I know some of the student data. Starting from their background to their previous problems" I just nodded even though in my heart I didn't really understand.

"But I know that you can be a good friend. I can give you some information if you want," she then left her seat. I looked back at the field and the break was over.

"How do I make friends with her?"