Complexity

It's not a dream right?

Xinyu Pov

Am I happy? Of course. It's been 2 months since I became friends with Sohyun and I've never gotten bored. It turns out that Sohyun is an Act of Service person. She gave me matcha chocolate several times that I never even asked for. She also often guards my head every time I take something under the table, so that my head doesn't hit the table. Isn't she very sweet?

And do I have to explain that she will make a lot of strange sounds every time she is near me? This is something new that I know. I asked the other class members and they didn't know about this at all because Sohyun is too quiet. She will often make baby sounds when she is embarrassed or tired or whatever. She is also actually very clingy. I don't know what keeps her from doing that, but several times she will stick to me. But even though she likes to stick like that, sometimes she will feel very embarrassed if I am the one who sticks to her. Either she will avoid her or her face will be very red.

This time, I invited her to my house because Handong cooked a lot. Actually, it wasn't me who invited her, but Handong who invited her.

"So why did you invite me?"

"Handong cooked too much"

"It's March 26th" she said while showing her phone's lockscreen.

Who is that.... In her phone's wallpaper? I don't know

"No wonder she cooked quite a lot. It's her birthday" I was still thinking about who was on her wallpaper.

"Really? I didn't buy her anything" I just chuckled while hugging her. Now she was used to what I did. She even often pulled my hand to get closer to her.

"You don't need to give her anything. She already has everything she wants"

"Even so, it's her birthday. What does she like?"

"I don't know? Maybe cats?" she just nodded and looked next to her which was exactly the gift shop.

"Maybe I can buy her something" and she entered the gift shop.

One new fact that I got from Sohyun, it turns out she's quite active. She can be said to be very interested in making other people happy. That's the reason why she likes to do other people's tasks. Because she wants to ease their problems.

"You ease their problems, but you yourself don't ease your problems"

"What are you talking about?" I just shook my head.

"Let me ease your problems"

When we got home, Sohyun with a self I had never seen before, came to Handong while hugging and wishing her a happy birthday. She also immediately gave her the gift she had bought earlier.

"yaah, why bother? But this is cute. Thank you"

I don't know why there was a hot feeling when I saw her hugging Handong. I'm not sure what that feeling was, but I felt a little hot, and mad?

"Jealous?" asked Ning-ning who had been next to me for some time.

"What do you mean jealous?"

"Your face looks like you're holding back anger. Do you like her?"

"I don't know. I'm not sure either" it was true. For the past few weeks I've felt that something strange has crossed my mind every time I see or am around her.

Seeing her happy seems like a pleasure in itself for me. But I'm not sure about my own feelings. Do I like her? Am I just happy with her? Am I in awe of her? Do I pity her? I don't know. I'm not sure.

"Xinyu, what are you thinking about?" she called, now standing in front of me.

"Are you thinking about something?" I could hear the anxious tone she gave. But why was she anxious?

"I'm not thinking about anything. Are you worried about me?" she nodded and patted my cheek softly for some reason.

"I've called you many times but you didn't respond. What's wrong with you?"

Why are you this sweet?

"I'm fine. Want to eat?" she nodded and immediately held my hand. Because her hands were so small, she had a little trouble holding mine. And it was so adorable.

The four of us ended up eating together to celebrate Handong's birthday. Ning-ning noisily took out her guitar and sang as if she didn't feel like she was running out of energy. I'm sure with all their riots, the neighbors would hate us all. Sohyun on the other hand really enjoyed this riot and didn't just stay silent like usual. She also got closer to me several times and leaned her head on my shoulder.

"they're too noisy"

"agree" I don't know what she was thinking, but this time she put her arm around my hand and got closer. She just stayed silent while watching all the riots that Handong and Ning-ning did until the day was almost dark.

"I'll take you home?" she nodded and immediately held my hand.

During the journey home, we were just silent. But not an awkward silence. We both felt comfortable with our silence. But I was still thinking about who the woman on her cellphone wallpaper was.

"Sohyun?"

"hm?"

"who's on your phone lockscreen?" she stopped walking and looked at me with a look as if asking something.

"my phone wallpaper? That's me" she said with a smile and showed her lockscreen wallpaper.

"this is when I was walking alone in the park. The park near my house. I'm a bit sick of staying at home for a long time, so I often go for walks" I was very curious about her family's story but I felt bad asking her.

"how about you? What's your Lockscreen?" I immediately showed my Lockscreen which showed me being photographed secretly by Nien.

"is this you?"

"yes"

"pretty" then she looked at me.

"like the real one" then she just left.

Why do I feel something strange again?

"ZHOU XINYUU!! IF YOU STAY LONGER I WILL LEAVE"

I think I do like her.