as you wish

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irl

"kai! hey, talk to me. are you okay?" matt catches up to her, stopping in the now almost empty front yard.

she stops walking, but doesn't turn around to look at him.

"do you want a hug?" he asks, stepping closer to her.

"no! leave me alone!" she turns around to look at him.

"what? why are you mad? what did i do?" he looks at her, confused.

"you just don't get it, matt." she shakes her head, tears beginning to pool in her tear ducts.

"kai? what are you talking about? is this about james? i didn't know what to do, i thought you-" he starts.

"you don't understand. i keep hurting everyone around me. i don't know what gave me the delusion that i'd ever be a good girlfriend." a single tear falls from her eye as the loud music from inside is very much still heard from out here.

"really? you feel guilty so you're taking it out on me?" the tone in matt's voice shifts to frustration.

"what? no, i'm trying to talk to you about my feelings, matt." kaia looks confusedly at him.

"no, you're not. you're making excuses so you don't feel like the bad guy when all you do is hurt people. stop acting like a
victim!" matt shouts, startling her.

"why are you being like this? i thought you'd understand how i'm feeling, i just want to talk to you, baby." kaia's tears now falling freely as she can't fight them.

"don't call me baby. what is wrong with you? you're acting like you weren't about to dump me for some bullshit fucking reason." matt steps towards her and she flinches, he's reminding her of how her dad used to yell.

"oh, don't even. flinching? really? acting like i'm gonna hit you so you have a sob story to tell all your friends about how awful of a boyfriend i was?" matt rolls his eyes and laughs at her.

"was? matt, we're not breaking up over this. let's just talk about it, please." matt had never seen kaia look so sad and desperate for him.

"yes the fuck we are! i'm done with your bullshit, i can't keep acting like i'm okay with how you treat me. it's over, get a life." matt gestures his hand towards her and turns around, storming back into the party.

kaia stands alone and crying in the front yard all by herself.

after what seems like a few seconds, matt comes out of the house with nick and chris.

all three of them give her a dirty look as they climb into an unknown car. kaia watches as the car drives past her, seeing that james was the driver.

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kaia startles awake and she sits up out of matt's arms, her hand rushes to hold her chest, feeling her heart beat impossibly fast.

she begins to hyperventilate and matt had woken up from the sudden lack of her body in his arms.

he sees her struggling to breathe and dashes out of bed, turning the light switch on and hurrying back over to her.