Taste of ecstasy

Chapter 20

"You have to let me have what I want and what I wish....i beg you...I am truly happy for once in my life" his eyes were wet and his hands joint he was almost on his knees.

Raphael turned toward his dear friend with angry look "Magnus I told you....it might hurt you again to hear but...he is not genuinely feels anything for you...it's your scent and...." He stopped talking when Magnus interrupted him "no!!!....thats not true...I wore the amulet brother Enoch made for me to manipulate my scent after you brought this scent thing to me other day in the back garden at fairy court...and raph...he is not....he truly likes me...trust me in this....he makes me happy so much happy...." This made Raphael confused and amazed.

"What do you mean you wore amulet and still he...anyway...I can't risk your life..you are not doing this...you are not going to palace that's it...." Raphael said little louder which made Magnus's eyes tears down his cheeks.

"You don't understand, I will be more safe there he will be around me, for longer time even you will be there I won't be alone of course you can keep eye on me if I do something stupid and then,...and then I will stay in fairy court sleep there....raph....dont do this...let me have him as long as I can I....i don't have enough time...." He couldn't complete the sentence, even in last 15 years, Magnus will turn 21 in months he still has hard time to accept his fate and makes peace with it.

Raphael's heart melted his furious, protective stand crumbled down, he never imagined Magnus involved with someone before so it is difficult for him to understand all of this and on second thought he is worried for the Alec, his king who has no idea about Magnus's background, what if things go beyond just attraction and affection. He doesn't want his king to go through heart break he doesn't deserved it. There are a lot more perfect suiters out there for the king he should be focused on them and let Magnus go Alec should know that Magnus can never be his.

"He doesn't deserve this...(he shook his head) his majesty is so pure and selfless Magnus...what if he feels more for you and...then he will have to loose you to your dark fate...he will be broken beyond repair...I know him so well" Raphael couldn't help but expressed his worry, he feels so helpless he couldn't take sides because both of his friend were so dear to him.

Magnus heard Raphael and understood what he is trying to say and he agreed with him but how can his dear friend who knows him so well too couldn't get that Magnus will suffer too, he will be grilled between his one and only happiness and fate's wrath he might loose his soul if he looses the king.

But at the end it is better only one of them gets hurt and suffer so Magnus thought why not himself he will endure whatever life throws at him if he gets to have some peaceful happy moments with the king and leave his life for better.

Magnus sighed defeated and sat on the floor leaning on the balcony door of his room he wiped off his tears and sniffed multiple times.

Raphael saw how quiet Magnus become and sadness in his face was speaking more than his words expressed. Raphael mirrored Magnus's sitting position.

"You are right....i forgot how things will turn out...(he inhaled sharply)....of course he doesn't deserve it. But raph, if I am to deny this now he will never going to stop coming for me..I saw that in his eyes at least...this way I can make him understand that there cant be anything more between us it will hurt the most to push him away you know...but, it's for the best...." Magnus spoke kneading his hands sniffed couple of times.

"I hate this...I hate to hurt you every time when you are actually happy and I hate to do this to his majesty too...he do deserve someone like you in his life (magnus surprisingly looked at his friend) I see some nasty prince here and there wearing very weird dresses and try to impress his majesty and you know what? he hate it so much...first he hates being around people all the time and second he hate people who are desperate to have him or try to gain his interests...trust me he is so fed up already he almost gave up...but, (Raphael turned towards Magnus sitting on the floor) but then he met you and like you admitted you does make him happy too my dear he is himself since past month he is happier. He could focus on his duty and full fill it...you both are mirror souls to each other like twin flames..you have fire within you Magnus, and I am sure his majesty recognised it and no wonder he is drowned to you...(all his words brought a wide smile on magnus's face) only you can be with him without expecting anything from him, unconditionally " Raphael said saw saw how he could bring A smile on his friend's beautiful friend, he left a satisfied sigh.