Espérer [TwilightFanFic] **COMPLETED**

Funerals and Decisions...

That next day was really harsh on everyone. It was the funeral, and afterwards, I had to go to school and give Edward my final decision. One that can either help or destroy me and my family all together. Not to mention, I have a Calculus final today as well. My life couldn't get any worse. Well, it could. Jack says I really need to talk to my mom, and I promised I'd call her once I got home from school. I mean, I do have a lot of other things going on, and if I didn't get around to calling her, I'm sure she'd understand.... Right??

We pull up to Forks Cemetery and Jack kills the engine. "I haven't been here since your moms mother died" Jack murmurs with a half smile and I slightly grin. "Yeah I remember... Grams funeral was heartbreaking... Especially for mom" I say, looking back to the tombs. "Yeah, but then again, I never liked that woman. She was so determined to keep your mother away from me. May God be with her" He says, causing me to giggle softly. I watch as Jake and his dad pull up beside us, both of them wearing soft smiles. Jake climbs out of the car, and goes around to the back, pulling out the wheelchair for his dad. I look back over to Jack, who's face has fallen again.

"I know this is probably the last place you want to be right now" I say, and he nods. "Yeah, a friends funeral isn't what I had planned on doing today" He says, letting out a soft sigh. I nod, and look back out the window, giving Jake and his dad a soft wave, as Jake rolls him towards where the ceremony was to be held. I look back over to my dad, and give him a half smile as we both climb out of the car, arm in arm, as we make our way towards the ceremony as more cars pile in.

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Almost half the town had shown up, and by half I mean everyone. The only ones that weren't here were probably half the faculty and some of the students. I noticed some of the few students who were here, and some that had graduated years before. Mike Newton being one of them. Apparently he was pretty close to Bella and her father. I was surprised at first when I didn't see Edwards family here. But remembering that they can't show their selves in the sunlight, made their non appearance less of a shocker.

After the ceremony, most of the crowd had cleared except for Jack, Jake, Mr. Black, and myself. We all stand close to the tomb, as we wait for most of the crowd to clear. Mr. Black looks to us, and sighs. "That was depressing" He says, adjusting the cowboy hat that sits upon his long black hair. "Yeah, its not everyday you burry a friend" Jack says, mainly out of nerves. I roll my eyes, crossing my arms over my chest as Jake stands closer to me, wrapping an arm around my shoulders. I place my head on his shoulder, thinking about my conversation with Edward later. Jake rubs softly on my arm, trying to soothe me. If I didn't have so much on my mind, it would but right now, its not helping at all.

"I'm surprised Dr. and Mrs. Cullen aren't here" Jack says, and I hear Billy snort. "I'm not" He says, quickly catching himself as Jake kicks the side of his wheelchair. "I-I mean, yeah it is a shocker" He says, sarcasm clear in his voice. Jake's arm falls as he walks over to his dad, taking ahold of the wheelchair. I look up to them, then to my father as he lets out a sigh. "Well, I'm going to go ahead and take this old timer home" Jake says, referring to his father, who gives him a flip of the middle finger. I roll my eyes, before looking over to them. "It was nice seeing you again Billy" I say, smiling to him. "And you Lily. Don't be a stranger" He says, taking my hand and placing a soft kiss on the top of it. I smile, then look to Jake, as he smiles to me.

I feel like what happened the other day between Jake and myself was just... What happened. I don't really know how to explain it. All I know is we haven't been the same since. I mean yeah, we are still friends, but I don't really know. I don't see him more than that. But then I do. Does that make any sense??

I watch as Jake wheel's Billy off, before turning back to my father, smiling to him. "Well, If you want, I can stay home with you. I don't really want you to be alone after all this today" I say, and Jack shakes his head. "No, you need to go to school. We can hang out once you get home. I'll be fine. Promise" He says, rubbing the back of my head. I nod, and wrap my arm around his waist as we walk back towards his car, and head on to my school.