Espérer [TwilightFanFic] **COMPLETED**

The Change...

I could feel the venom spreading throughout my body as my eyes drifted shut. The pain was... Painful and it felt as though my body was on fire. I wanted to scream but couldn't find my voice. I couldn't breathe. It felt as though all the air had left my lungs. I felt like I was dying... And I was. I couldn't hear the voices around me anymore but I knew they were there. They had to be. Edward wouldn't let me go through all this alone... Would he?

I laid there for hours. Feeling the venom spread from my toes to my fingertips. I felt the venom cover every molecule in my body and cover every fiber. My body began to feel super warm, as the venom continued through my body. At long last, I felt the venom reach my head, making my brain go fuzzy. My throat was sore, like I had been at a concert, screaming the entire time. My stomach felt full even though not hours ago, I was starving. 

And finally, than pain stopped. The burning feeling was gone. My body felt calm, and slightly tingly. I wanted to open my eyes, but couldn't find the energy to. I wanted to see Edward standing beside me. I needed to know he'd been here all along. I needed to see him. I need him. NOW. I still couldn't talk, and I so desperately wanted to. I don't think I've ever wanted to talk so much before in my entire life. But now, my life... Well old life, was over. And this is my new life. As a vampire. 

The thought made me smile, at least smile to myself.. And that's when I heard the voices again. "She should be awake any moment" Edward says, and I smile more at the sound of his voice. There's  movement in the room, and I still, listening again. "She will. Just be patient Edward" Carlisle's calm voice says, somewhere beside me. I tried to open my eyes, but they remained shut. Blacking out my vision, blacking out everything from around me. 

"I still don't see how everyone's so calm after everything that's happened in just the week that she's been out" A voice says, and I can't quite make out who it is. Its male. And its a deep husky voice. I wait for him to speak again, but this time its Alice who speaks up. "Yes, we are calm about it. Its just in our nature to-" "Unlike you vermin, I'm sure" Rosalie interjects, and if I could, I'd roll my eyes at her snide-ness. 

Wait...

She's only snide to one person. Minus me that is. But there's only one person she's ever been snide to and that's... Jake. He's here. I can feel his heat. He's standing close to me. He's so close. I can also smell things.. A lot better than I could before. I can smell the faint smell of cinnamon from downstairs and I could hear the t.v. on in the living-room. I must be close to there. I could hear the stead beat of Jake's heart as it thumps in an odd rhythm. 

I wanted so badly to open my eyes to see him. To know even after I became immortal, that he still wanted to have things to do with me. I tried opening my eyes, only to close them once more. The light in the room was so bright, and it made my head throb in pain. Watch, I'll be the only vampire not aloud in sunlight... Like on TruBlood. 

I try speaking, and everyone around me pauses. "I think she's waking up" I hear Jasper comment, then a small chuckle is heard around the room. "Of course she is. She should be awake now" Edward says, huffing slightly. Geez, he's so impatient. I slowly open my eyes again, letting them try and adjust to the light and my new sight. 

Things looked so much more clearer than before. I could see every tiny dust particle floating in the air. See every thread that made up each line in the curtains. I could feel all the eyes on me as I slowly sit up from Carlisile's patient bed, and look around the room. Sure enough, everyone was staring back at me. I blink a few more times, feeling my lens adjust, before opening them again, and stopping on the one face that matters most. Edwards. 

He's wearing a small smile, and his eyes flick over my entire being. I bite my lip, realizing I don't feel the familiar heat going to my cheeks, then smile, remembering I don't blush anymore. I won't cry anymore. I'm immortal. 

I glance to Alice, who's wearing a bright smile as she stares back at me. "You look amazing, Lily" She says, walking over and placing a small hand on my shoulder. Her hand feels lighter than before, as I look from it to her. She smiles, and I smile back to her. I look up to see Jasper standing beside her, looking to me. He's wearing a smirk on his face, as he slowly speaks to me. 

"Well, welcome to the family" He says, chuckling softly, before standing aside, and letting Rose and Emmett come over to me. Rose smiles to me, but stays quiet as Emmett speaks up. "Well, Well.. The familiar red eyes" Emmett says, smirking to me. I feel my smile drop as I look around the room, spotting the mirror over near the window. I get up, only to already be at the mirror, and smile again, remembering vampire speed.

I look at my reflection in the mirror, and I'm almost horrified at the person looking back at me. Horrified and in lust. She's gorgeous. She's terrifying. She's me. My hair is slightly bushier than before. My skin is a pale color. I'm currently in a pair of black jeans, a pair of knee high, leather, heeled boots, a black tank top, with a black leather jacket over them. I look down to my hands, looking at the skin, before seeing a pair of black finger-less gloves on my hands. I look back up to my reflection, as a small smile appears on my lips, but then I notice my eyes. The color. Red. Blood red. I feel my heart lurch forward then lower into my stomach, as I take a step back, shaking slightly.

Edward's to my side in seconds. I feel his hands on my shoulders, as I turn to him. His eyes aren't like mine. His are a honey color. And at the present moment in time, I envy him. I don't want to look like this. I don't want my eyes this color. I want to look like him. Beautiful. I bite my lip, waiting for the tears to pool in my eyes, but they don't, and they won't. I look to my feet, then back to him. His eyes are sympathetic looking, and I smile softly to him.

"Hi" He whispers, his arms snaking themselves around my waist. "Hi" I manage to whisper back, smiling to him. That's the first time I've spoken to him since my change. My voice sounds different. Slightly different. More like Alice's was. Melodic. I look around as Jake comes closer to me, followed by Seth. Both smile to me slowly, as I look from Seth to Jake. I give them both a small smile, before tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear. Even in this state, I still get nervous. Seriously. 

I feel Edward chuckle, and I look to him. He gives me a soft wink, as I turn my attention back to Jake. "You look... Different" He says, checking me out. I smile a bit, looking from Edward's chest, back to Jake. "I feel different" I say, nodding slightly. "You must be starving too" Edward says, and I look back to him feeling my throat burn more. I nod slightly, before looking back to Jake. 

His expression is unreadable and I question whether or not he's mad or happy. "We need to let you hunt" Edward says, pulling back but taking my hand in his. I smile to him, before looking back to Jake and Seth. "You'll still be here when I get back?" I ask, hope clear in my voice. "You kidding.." Jake starts, and I feel my heart drop lower into my stomach again. "We're coming with you" He says, a smile playing on his lips. I smile back to him, before looking to Edward. "Lets go" I say, as Edward nods, pulling me along side him, and out the front door for my first hunt. 

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