Espérer [TwilightFanFic] **COMPLETED**

The Truth...

I pull into the school parking lot and kill the engine. I glance from the clock on the dashboard to the empty parking lot again. Different thoughts flood mind as I try to figure out what I'm going to ask Edward when he gets here.

Just when I think I have a good enough conversation starter, I see his shiny Volvo speed into the parking lot, parking beside my truck. He steps out, looking flawless as ever and it takes everything I have in me to pull my eyes away from his appearance. He's wearing a light grey v neck shirt, with dark blue jeans, and a pair of shoes that probably cost more than my entire outfit all together. He's wearing a dark jacket and his hair is gelled to almost perfection. I run my fingers through my hair one last time before climbing out of the truck, shutting the door behind me.

I turn to face Edward, and see that award winning smile spread across his face that I love so much. "Hey Lily" he says and my voice gets caught in my throat, coming out something between a cough and a squeak. I clear my throat and grin to him "Hi.." is all I manage to say before turning my gaze back to my feet. Why am I so nervous?

"So, what did you want to ask me? What's the big emergency that you couldn't just come by my house and we could talk there?" He asks, a smile playing on his lips. "Your family was there and this is.... Private" I say the last word at almost a whisper. Edward simply nods, waiting for me to continue. "Okay, so here goes..." I pause for a minute, leaning against my truck for support.

"I was with a friend today... We got to talking about the town and it's history..." I pause and glance to Edward, as he continues to stare at me. "And they said something.... About a certain family.... That once lived here" I say, looking up to him again, his features remain the same.

I look to my feet as he shifts his weight on his feet, leaning back against his car, crossing his arms over his chest "Which family?" He asks, as I look up to him. He's smiling slightly and I look back down to my feet. I take a steady breath as I look back up to him and I feel my lips move, but no words come out. Obviously something did because Edwards expression is no longer happy... Its.. Shocked?

I close my mouth and wait for a response. He continues to stare at me, that shocked expression still taking over his face. He let's out a soft laugh, then looks from his feet to me "My family?" He asks before continuing "I told you my family originated in Italy. Most of my family lives in Alaska" he smiles, clearly not understanding what I'm saying.

I shake my head and continue "Edward, they meant... Your family as in.... You, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, Esme, and Carlisle" I say, stopping after I've spoken all his family members names. His eyes widen as I finish and he looks away from me as I continue "Which brings me to the question that I drug you out here to ask..." I pause again, looking at him.

He's looking away from me, and it's completely quiet except for the soft thunder in the distance. He looks back to me, and I swear I detect a flicker of fear behind his honey colored eyes. "Are you... And your family.... Vampires?" I ask, the last word feeling like acid against my tongue.

Edward doesn't answer for what seems like an eternity and I grow more and more impatient. I go to say something but he cuts me off "Who told you?" He asks, anger clear in his voice. I look from my feet to him, shocked that he completely dodged to answer my question all together. "What?" I ask, looking at him, completely dumb founded. "Was it that snark Jacob?" He asks, scanning the parking lot like Jacob's going to show up at any second. I place my hands on his shoulders, a shudder runs through my body, as I pull my hands away quickly.

Edward doesn't seem to notice, and I look back to him, as his eyes find mine. "It doesn't matter who told me, I mean its probably not-" I stop as I feel Edwards gaze on me. I look up to find anger behind his eyes and they have a hold of mine. "Lily, you can't see Jacob anymore, understood?" Edward says, warning clear in his voice. He can't be serious. I shake my head and take a step towards the door of my truck, placing my hand on the handle.

Edward notices my sudden movement, and he steps closer to me. "You can't tell me who my friends are Edward, and you completely dodged my question about.... Your family" I stop and swallow the bile rising in the back of my throat as I continue. "Jacob's a friend. He's always been here for me, since I moved here with my... Jack" I stop, as I feel my lungs feel like there going to cave in at any moment. I close my eyes as I continue, dreading each word as they are said "Edward, I can't leave here without knowing the truth", I stop, looking up to him, waiting for an answer.

"I think you already know the answer" He says, looking away from me and into the distance behind me. It feels like the wind has been knocked out of me. I can't breathe. It feels like the world is going to collapse at any given second. I open my truck door and climb inside it, slamming the door behind me. I quickly buckle up, as I start my truck. I place my hand on the gear shift, and look up to see Edward climbing into his car. I throw the truck in drive, and speed out of the parking lot. Goodbye Edward.

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I run up the steps and into the house, slamming the door behind me, leaning against it. Edwards a vampire... How could I be so stupid as to not notice this before? I place my palm against my head, and let out the breath I didn't know I was holding before. He kept this from me the entire time I knew him. I actually thought I might have feelings for him.. For... A vampire.

I rush upstairs and to the bathroom, getting onto my knees in front of the toilet, letting today's breakfast hit the toilet bowl. I heave a couple more times, more vomit coming out of my mouth, pouring really.. Pouring like the rain that has started outside, Pouring like all the secrets that have been hidden from me, Hidden like my feelings for Edward. I reach up, pulling the leaver, flushing away the hidden truth and all my feelings for him. I watch as what I thought my life was go circling around and around like my clouded thoughts. I watch as the old me is flushed away and the new me takes over.

I pull out my phone and check the time, 7pm. Jacob should still be awake. I stand up and brush my teeth quickly before darting back down the steps and out the front door. By the time I reach my truck and make it inside, I'm soaking wet from the rain. I start my truck quickly, throwing it in drive and make my way down the long and curvy road to Jacobs.