The Assistant (english)

8.

-Time jump 5 months later-

I am now officially separated from Tim and together with Kaydi. We admitted it in an interview about 2 months ago. Until a month ago, the press was unbearable. Now it has calmed down somewhat, but who knows for how long. Also, we have moved. Tim still has the duplex but wants to sell it. Mia has found a new apartment, and Kaydi and I have moved into a house. The dogs live with us, as do the children. Every two weeks they are with Tim, though.

"And Helena, how is it to have a girlfriend?" Stephen interrupts my thoughts. Kaydi and I are invited to his show because of some new headlines. I still don't know what they are since Kaydi thought it would be better if I found out in a place where I couldn't hurt anyone or shout. Honestly, I have no idea what it's about or what it could be, and I'm also a bit scared.

"Pleasant," I must smile at Kaydi's look.

"Ah, okay," Kaydi responds, offended. I can't help but laugh even more, and the audience laughs along.

"No, all good. It's enchanting. I never thought I could feel this way for the same gender. Kaydi has been showing me sides of myself since I met her that I didn't know before." I look at our hands, which she has held during my response.

"Cute. What sides?" Stephen raises his eyebrows, and even the audience notices his implication.

"No kidding, everything's fine."

"Oh, I think after about 4 months of a relationship, it's no secret that there are also intimate moments. After all, it's part of a relationship, in my opinion," Kaydi says casually.

-POV Kaydi-

"Funny how she's blushing," Stephen notices.

"Now, just between us..." Stephen whispers and leans forward.

"Yes?" I ask, leaning in as well. Hellie just looks confused between us.

"On a scale from 1 to 10?"

"Already like an 11. She still needs some practice sometimes, but she'll get there," I grin.

"Okay, and how loud? 1 to 10?"

"Uff, 1000." Hellie has buried her head in her hands, which are barely distinguishable from a tomato, even with makeup.

"Cute. I've never seen her this embarrassed before. Usually, she's always-" I start.

"Okay. Stop! Kaydi, shut up! You've said enough," Hellie interrupts.

"Okay, ladies. Let's get to the actual topic. The current headlines..."

-POV Helena-

"What would those be?" I ask. Kaydi still hasn't told me what the headlines are about. I haven't heard anything, and it seemed to have calmed down again.

"You don't know what headlines I mean? They're everywhere," Stephen asks. I just shake my head.

"I didn't say anything because you probably would have killed him otherwise. If you're sitting here, you're forced to control yourself, because as far as I know you, your first reaction is anger, and then later comes the sorrow, and she's not sitting here then." Kaydi explains. I just look at her, confused.

"So, the current headline is about Tim Burton, who has admitted on Instagram to cheating on you with his assistant, who is Kaydi's ex and now best friend." I am speechless.

"Excuse me," I just say and stand up, going to the dressing room, where I sit down and take a deep breath. An employee comes in and turns off my mic, handing me a glass of water. I take out my phone and go into the live broadcast to see what Kaydi is doing.

-POV Kaydi-

I knew it was the wrong decision. I should have told her.

"Do you want to go to her?" Stephen asks me. I just shake my head and take a sip.

"No, i-it would be wrong to follow her now. She wants to be alone, or else she would have told me to follow her or she would have stayed here. She's probably sitting in the dressing room with a glass of water and her phone, continuing to watch the interview."

"Okay, then I'll ask you the questions about the headline, or do you want to postpone it?" Stephen suggests.

"No, go ahead."

"Okay. What was your reaction? And where did you see it?"

"I had already suspected it because Mia would never have reacted so calmly when I broke up with her. She asked me that night who the reason for the breakup was, and she also asked if it was Tim. You could clearly see that she was relieved when I denied it. I told her that I had feelings for Helena and that I hoped to be with her someday. So, she would have Tim for herself, and thanks to me, they would break up, so Tim wouldn't have been the bad guy. It would have been a normal breakup due to loss of feelings. Her plan worked perfectly. Helena broke up with him to get to know me and not to cheat on him. Tim was single again and could have fun with Mia. But unfortunately, Tim couldn't live with a guilty conscience. He publicly admitted to cheating on Helena again. If he hadn't said it, it would have been just my suspicion, and maybe that of a few other people who didn't believe him when he said he had changed, including me. And I found out through Insta."

"How did you feel?"

"Very, very betrayed. I admitted to her that I was losing my feelings for her and broke up with her because I loved someone else. She acted so generous, yet she had already cheated on me with him. I felt so damn bad that night just because I didn't have feelings for her anymore, and she apparently didn't even feel a little ashamed of cheating on me."

"That's understandable, but let's look into the future. Do you have plans for the future?" he changes the subject.

"Between whom?" I ask, momentarily confused.

"Oh yes, sorry. Between you and Helena."

"Um, it's difficult. We had already thought about a wedding, but we'll decide that in 1 to 4 years, as many things can still change by then, which I certainly hope not, but you never know. Also, I once thought, without Hellie knowing, about having a child. I mean, there are many options on how and so on, which we could talk about. But as I said, everything comes with time. And only if we both want it."

"Do you think she still wants a child?"

"I don't know. On the one hand, I think so, since she loves children, but on the other hand, she already has two wonderful children."

-POV Helena-

I'm still sitting in the dressing room, watching the interview. They're talking about children now and how Kaydi wants to have her own child. However, she doesn't want to decide over my head, which I appreciate.

A few days ago, she was feeling really bad, and I already thought she might be pregnant and cheating on me.

But right now, I don't know how to react. I know it's an important issue for her age. She's 23 and already fully into life. She has everything I didn't have until I was in my late 30s or early 40s. The only thing missing is children. If I had pursued a different career, I might have had my two children by my mid-20s, but my career didn't allow for that.

However, the question remains: Do I want another child? My children are now 5 and 9, but another little one?

In principle, I have nothing against it, but there's my career. I'm constantly on the go and often away in the evenings. Now I have Kaydi, who takes care of the children, but what if she has a little one of her own? I can't leave her alone with two children and a small baby.

The topic is not yet finished, but I won't bring it up either.