Billie's P.O.V
He knows. He knows what really happened and why I'm so scared. He knows it was all a lie to protect him from the truth. I'll never forget the day Matthew stole my sweet precious innocence. He grabbed me restrained me then had his disgusting way with me. I cried and I cried. I begged and I begged but he ignored me tuned me out and continued to violate my poor body. When he finally finished he left me restrained forcing me to lay there in agony. I'll never forget the pain and hours I was left to suffer. He came back later that night to unrestrain me but he didn't say a word. After he left I didn't move all night despite being hungry and having to pee. It was seriously so traumatic and I've been scared of sex since.
I feel Jesse's strong arms holding me tight as I shake and sob. He strokes my hair and shushes me in an attempt to soothe me. I try to stop but I can't. Jesse continues to do everything he can to calm me and finally my body stops shaking. "That's it baby" he whispers. I hold onto him tight feeling safe and secure. "He's not going to hurt you ever again" he whispers. I nuzzle my face in his neck. "We can stop all this sexual stuff babygirl, I don't want you to be uncomfortable" he says rubbing my back. I lift my head. "No I like when you finger me and eat me out... I want to have sex with you but I need a little more time" I explain. I'm telling no lies I want him so bad but everything takes time. "Take all the time you need baby" he replies softly. I hug him again finally feeling calm. "Let's go watch TV" he suggests. I make him carry me to the living room. I look out the windows seeing rain pour down. I love rain it's so comforting. He rubs my back making me melt. "You know we're going to have to go back to work eventually?" I say. "Yeah but I'm the boss babygirl and I make the rules" he responds. I giggle and continue to cuddle him. "You should let me massage you, you're so tense" he says. I know I'm tense I'm just a very nervous and anxious person. "If you want to" I say softly. He positions me so I'm between his legs my back facing him. He starts lightly massaging my shoulders making me melt. It felt so nice and instantly started to relieve my tension. "You've gotta relax more you are ridiculously tense my love" he says. I just nod my head yes enjoying my massage. He puts pressure on a certain area making me moan. I hear him chuckle but I can't help it.
"That spot must be really tight" he says. Again I just nod my head yes moaning softly. He massages me for a good ten minutes before stopping. "You have to feel better after that" he says. "I do thank you" I say. "Anything for you my babygirl" he says. I turn around and straddle him snuggling up on his chest. "You're the cuddliest little thing" he chuckles rubbing my back. "I-Is that bad?" I ask softly. He lifts my face up. "No baby not at all" he replies before kissing my forehead. I smile and lay my head on his shoulder. I'm so tired from crying and he's so comfortable. He starts playing with my hair and within seconds I feel my eyes get heavy. It's raining and there's nothing better to do so I fall asleep.
Jesse's P.O.V
It's been an eventful twenty four hours. I still have every intention of killing Matthew for what he did to my sweet girl. I feel awful that I've pressured sexual stuff on her I seriously need to take it slow with her and be there for her. I can tell she's asleep so I grab a blanket covering us up. I'll gladly cuddle her all day long. "I love you" I whisper very softly. Once she's good and asleep I grab her phone and get into it. I'm going to find out everything about Matthew. I go to her messages and type in Matthew but he doesn't come up. Shit she must've deleted his number. I go to her contacts hoping by some chance he's under a different name. Then I see it The Devil I immediately click on it go through their messages. My heart drops reading them and seeing very graphic images.
The Devil: I saw you ate a snack without my permission. Cut now and I want a picture
Billie: Please no Matthew I'm sorry I just needed a little snack
The Devil: Argue with me and I'm locking you in the cage
Billie: *one attachment
The Devil: Good
I tear up and hold Billie tighter. The picture of her wrist broke my heart to pieces. I exit out of the messages not being able to bare anymore images. My poor precious girlfriend. I want to put the phone down but I can't. I have to find this piece of shit and make him pay. I go to her Facebook trying to see if she possibly still has him on there. I feel her shift and grip my shirt. I kiss her shoulder softly assuring her I'm here and she's safe. I scroll through her friends and see one person named Matthew. I click on it and see his relationship status says he's with Billie O'Connell. My blood boils but then I see the last time he posted was three years ago. It was a picture of him and Billie. She looked completely terrified and I see her arm is bruised. He just looks like a complete loser I can't believe my babygirl was ever with that. I go to her instagram next but have no luck finding him. I just need one updated picture of him. Suddenly Billie starts to stir. She sits up and kisses my cheek. "Hi babygirl" I coo at her. She makes me soft. "Hi" She responds with a giggle. She reaches for her phone but it obviously isn't there. "Jes have you seen my phone?" She asks. "Yes baby it's right here" I say handing it to her. She looks upset though. "Why were you going through it?" She asks with a serious tone. "I was just looking at it" I say. She immediately gets up. "Do you not trust me?" She spats. "Of course I do baby" I say. "Then why did you feel the need to invade my privacy?" I didn't think it would piss her off but clearly it did.
"I won't do it again sorry sweetheart" I say. She scoffs and storms out of the room. My inner dom immediately gets pissed but I stop myself, she needs gentle. I don't go after her I just let her calm down. After a few minutes she comes back through the living room not speaking. "Where are you going?" I ask sternly. "Home!" She spats slamming my door. I feel my blood boil. She's not going to act like this without consequence. I immediately go after her. "Get back in that house so we can talk" I say trying not to yell. "No fuck off!" She seethes. If I had it my way she'd be getting her little ass spanked right now. "Do not make me come get you" I threaten. "I'm going home Jesse" she says. "Then I'm coming with you we're going to talk this out like adults" I say. She sighs annoyed and goes back into the house. I follow behind her. "I don't like people invading my privacy" she spats crossing her arms over her chest. "I'm sorry baby I should've asked" I say sincerely. "Just tell me what you were doing" she says. I sigh "fine I was just looking for pictures of you" I say. I couldn't tell her the truth. She looks at me confused. "Seriously?" She asks. "Yes you're so cute and I don't have any pictures of you so I was trying to find some" I explain. She giggles, "well in that case I apologize for overrating and for the record you can have any picture of me you want" she says winking. I really just saved my ass but I'm definitely not giving up on finding Matthew even if it pisses her off.
