needy • jack dylan grazer X reader

thirty eight ♡

y/n pov:

after spending the day with the group today, i realized how much i missed it here

i kinda regret leaving but hey it was for the best, i also somehow got my life figured out

and seeing jack with someone else still kinda hurt in a way, but it's understandable

we were suppose to move on eventually

you both haven't

i snap out of my thoughts when i hear a notification

i grab my phone and see it's a message from simon

simon

heading up to ur room with ur fav snacks :)

i told him to come earlier for a movie night and just so we can analyze what happened to me today

soon enough i heard my door knock and i went to go open it revealing simon with a 711 bag

"about time" i said before letting him in and shutting the door behind me

"so" he says as he dumps the bag out revealing a ton of chips, candy, and sodas

"how was it seeing him again for the first time after years"

i lay on the bed and sigh, "well"

"it felt kinda weird, but good also.. he has a girlfriend by the way"

"well damn" he says opening a chip bag

there was a silence that feel between us

"your still not over him huh?" he says

here we go with that question, it's like my heart is playing a game of tug of war. part of me wishes that i would 100% move on already but there's that tiny voice that just can't let go i don't know

"i am, other wise i wouldn't be dating louis"

"hmm" he says munching on a chip

"i don't know why but you don't sound so sure about that"

i look over at him

"it's just.. everything is complicated. i love louis i really do, i feel so many sparks when im with him but.. when i saw jack today i felt that one spark when we first met"

"but im not sure if i want to feel that way again simon, he did hurt me" i sigh

"i get that. it can be tough when those feelings resurface again, but it's normal to feel conflicted. just remember it's important to prioritize your feelings and happiness above all" he tells me

i'm grateful to have him as a friend, he's the kind of guy that listens, understands and gives solid advice. he's really been my rock that i can always rely on these past 2 and a half years

"what would i do without you?" i smile at him

"i don't know, probably be lost or something" he smiles throwing doritos at me

i scroll on my phone and see my mutuals at a night club which then gave me the most stupidest but probably funnest idea

"how are you feeling a club tonight?" i suddenly ask

"oh god, what do you have in mind now?"

"i don't know, all i know is i need to feel something tonight" i smirk