Attraction

Part Thirty Seven

****italics means it's said in korean***

They decided to go to Namjoon's room.

It had been a long time where they had felt tension in their bodies, where they weren't moving along as one, where there was a silence that felt heavy.

"Do you... do you want dinner? We put some aside for you." Yoongi decided to start casual.

Namjoon had applied a special cream that worked to reduce swelling as well as unclogged blood vessels. By the morning, most of his bruises would be gone.

"No I'm fine." His answer was very short, "I'm surprised any of you came to see me. I thought we weren't going to talk for a bit."

"Well, we don't have time. We have already lost too much and we are getting ready to lose even more. We need to talk. All of us. We need to be honest." Yoongi answered Namjoon but also told the group.

"Tae and Hobi, you guys are hurt by her keeping this from us right?" Seokjin asked his two soulmates.

Both nodded their heads yes.

"The fact we leave tomorrow for Busan means we only have a couple more days with them. Knowing if we hadn't discovered the truth then Aila would just have left us...hurts. It cuts deep. How could she just.... pretend all this time? How could she show us the possibility of what could have been between us!? Every time I look at those kids, I feel my heart deepen with love and longing. I've always wanted kids. They... they could have been ours! We could have been a family. I could have held my child, product of our love, been able to hold yours. We could have grown our family with her. It... breaks me." Taehyung pushed his head back as the tears threatened to come down.

"I understand. You're right. I'm sure we all have felt like this. But Taehyung, I need you to understand that she didn't have anything to do with us wanting to get close to her or to all of them. It was an unconscious thing we did. All of us. I understand maybe she could have fought more to get away from us and maybe she didn't even try. But it was our decision to do this. Just the same it was our decision to look for those medical records after all this time." Yoongi told Taehyung.

"I know hyung. I understand. But my heart and my brain are two separate entities. The only reason why we couldn't stay away is because it was her. No other person has even captivated us the ways she has. She didn't even try and we are at her feet. We wouldn't have been able to stay away. I know we talked this out. We told ourselves this was just a distraction, but deep down, we all felt it. We liked her since the moment we laid eyes on her."

"I know. I think one way or another we would have looked for her eventually. One of us would have caved in." Yoongi nodded his head.

"It also hurt me knowing she knew. Did she not feel the same attraction for us? Did she not notice us at her side? Why was it so much easier for her to lie! She knew this!"

"Hobi baby, she's been knowing for years. She has had time to make peace with herself and us." Seokjin answered.

"She did... she did tell us, I mean Jimin and I, when we left for Gwangju. She.... asked why we had invited her in our space so easily. Why we were putting so much work into going out with her. Jimin and I didn't have an answer, so we just told her it was the kids. Made up some excuses, but then Jimin asked her how come she's traveling with us? When we are also strangers. She told us," Namjoon took a deep breath before continuing,

"She told us her curiosity got the best of her. We weren't strangers to her. She knew of us before her.... ex introduced her. She became a fan of BTS with him, but she already knew who we were. Then she said we helped her became the person she is today. But I never imagined this is what she was talking about. She even thank us for helping her in ways we would never know. She wanted to stay away, but her curiosity pushed her into accepting our proposal." Namjoon told the group.