Mute - L.H {5sos}

35

^ 3 months later ^

<> Luke <>

I sighed loudly as I stared at the ceiling in the so called living room on the tour bus.

All I could think about was Amnesia, she's all I have been thinking about these past couple months.

I know she's moved on, she has a boyfriend called Alex. Apparently he's a "bad boy"

I talk to amnesia's friends still and ask every now and then how she is.

They say she's fine.

Amnesia still talks and is best mates with the other boys which is quite hard for me to deal with.

I have to listen to them laughing on the phone with her or them telling me what funny thing happened in her life.

It's hell.

I still love Amnesia.

There is no point denying it!

After we broke up, Harry explained to me that he was flirting with her and wouldn't leave her alone. He said if you don't kiss me I'll make you and Luke break up.. Amnesia kissed him to try and save our relationship.

We could still be together now if she hadn't of been so stubborn!

God, I miss her....

I wish that I could wake up with Amnesia

"Luke, stop thinking about her!" Calum pleased

"I'm not!" I lie

"All you have done these few months is think about her. Dude, I'm not trying to be mean but move on. She has. Why can't you? She obviously doesn't love you anymore" Calum admitted

He's right, she has moved on. She doesn't love me, she loves someone else.

I stared at my hands for a while chewing on my lip ring

"Bro, I'm sorry that came out really mean" Calum sighed

"No, you're right. But here's the thing..yes I want to move on but I can't. I love her too much" I growl

It angers me that I can't just get over her!

Why is she so special to me?

I stood up slowly and walked away from Calum and the boys who were coming into the living room

"Luke?" Ash called but I ignored him

I climbed onto my top bunk and grabbed my phone.

I began scrolling through the pictures amnesia sent me or the photos I took of us both.

My favourite one is us at the beach, i took it mid laughing and was both have red skittles in the air.

She looked perfect.

I suddenly found myself thinking about our last kiss and the way it felt. I placed my fingers against my lips trailing them along.

Without thinking, I grabbed Calum's song book and a pencil.

I found a clear page and started scribbling down lyrics

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

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Thank you!

Not the best chapter but oh well, this was more of a filler chapter more than anything 🍒

Just watched the Minions flim✌🏼️ it's actually really good! And that's coming from a 13 year old😂

Lots of Love to you beautiful people

Byeee👋🏼

- Lyd🌸