I can feel the shadows growing within me
as I watch you humming to your favorite song
when I frantically chanted "I hate you"
in my sleep last night
giving way to my petulant pleasures
but seeing you sing
I thought "I'm still the victim,
I'm not my mother's age
but my mother's rage
so here I am standing"
then I tell you "Good morning"
and wrap my hands around you
and drink coffee together
like we never clashed the glass shards
into last night's sword fight
like I never wished I tumbled my candle
and catch you first
You're a human and a savior,
bringing the obscenities to my anger
my tears can't get too messy,
as neat as our folded laundry
feels like I could collide with drugs,
because everything I do isn't enough
We talk about dad like he's the real villain
and just like that we have forgotten
and even laugh about it
I gave you a concussion
you gauged my eyes out
then I slammed the door
then heard the bells ringing
activating the questions:
"what is it that you feel?
do you hate me and wish I wasn't real?"
which today proves I was wrong
I was the monster
to make you the monster
we're just like children playing seesaws
and laugh in the swings
the balm of my cracked lips
even if it snarled at you
and threw you the worst end of it
You're a human and a savior,
lifting up a fellow warrior
suffocate me in the best kind of way
I cling because I want you to stay
"I won't be here forever, so always remember
I love you because you're my daughter", my one optimum fever
Our home is a dice
a kaleidoscope of cherishing
screaming
wishing
fighting
loving
it's all at once
because I swear if I could afford to leave
I'll take you with me
even if sometimes I chant "I hate you"
in my sleep.
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Graveyard of Reveries
Thơ ca"Dig all the gravestones if you can Have a wonderful night in this rotting land A rollercoaster ride in dark fantasy Welcome to my graveyard of reveries" A random collection of poems written by a mentally unstable 17-year-old. pls be nice :) COVER B...
