Random x reader (BOOK 2)

Joe Jonas x Reader

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(Y/n's Intro)

My mother always said that we don't go through anything in life that we can't handle; that everything we go through in life helps us become the people we're meant to be & grow stronger with each challenge we face.
But she also warned me that people can be cruel to those who are different and to never listen to them.
I just wish there was no cruel people in the world, but then again, if they didn't exist I would be with the most amazing man of my life.

(Y/n's Pov)

It felt like my lungs were drowning from the water yet to be expressed from my tears while my muscles were straining in my legs.
My vision blurry and the feelings I was experiencing were not good.
I probably looked even worse to those that looked at, (what I assume I probably look to them) the crazy woman running blindly through streets of the somewhat busy roads of the small town of Forks to the local Park (which also caters as a dog bark.)
When I made it to the lonely bench of the park, I let out an ear shattering cry & all my tears were finally free to fall from my eye-ducts.

Collapsing onto the bench, my ears becoming deaf to everything going on around me and after a little bit, deaf to my own tears and cry's of emotional pain.
The musty (soon to be rainy atmosphere, judging from the smell before my snot clogged up my nasal airways) air mixed with the constant wave of fresh salty tears that made the rims of my eyes & cheeks red with noticeable tear lines that seemed to be carving into my face.
Like how water erodes the ground and dirt, creating cliffs & continents.
After what felt like forever, a sound, other than my tears falling & my screams echoing in the air, reached me.
Erasing all my pain.
'Music'.
And not just any music, it's Jonas Brother's music.
The source that always puts a smile on my face & yet also the source of many people incessant mental/emotional torture.
But no matter what I went through, the Jonas Brothers music is the best kind of medicine that doesn't come in the form of a pill.

I stayed still and closed my eyes, letting the music wash over me.
After the first couple of seconds, I recognized the song and began singing softly.
"Oh, oh, Yeah.
(I tapped my foot to the beat and then the tips of my finger tips.)
Oh, oh, Yeah.
(I smiled and then began feeling my heart soar.)
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
(I've been thinking about my dream guy being Joe Jonas; who also happens to be my all time crush.)
I've been looking for that someone,
(I swinged my head and sang.)
I'll never make it on my own.
(I then toke a quick breath and then sang louder,  my smile probably made my tear stained face look pink as a rose but I wasn't caring.)
Dreams can't take the place of loving you;
(I tapped my hands in a rhythmic pattern to the song and then I sang fully with my heart.)
Theres gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

(I opened my eyes and looked to the shy and imagined Joe's brown eyes staring back at me.)
When you look me in the eyes;
And tell me that you love me,
(I feel that feeling I get every time I hear Jonas Brothers music, more specifically Joe's voice.)
Everything's alright.
(I looked at the empty space beside me on the bench and imagined him there.)
When you're right here by my side;
When you look me in the eyes,
(I began imagining the future with us together and my heart felt lighter than a feather.)
I catch a glimpse of heaven,
I find my paradise.
(I took a soft pause singing the next line softly.)
When you look me in the eyes.

(I then opened my eyes and saw a couple walking in the distance, seeing them hold their hands.
Which is why I sung so softly, as not to disturb them and let them know I'm watching.)
How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
(I watched them kiss and I smiled and began fiddling with my hands.)
I'm gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
(I reminded myself that Joe doesn't even know that I exist and took comfert in having the next best thing, Joe's music.
Which Is why I now wish I didn't leave my iPod at home today.)
I can't take a day without you here,
(I began hearing the childish tauts I got from many people back at my university and how joed music made everything go away.)
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.