𝙁𝙤𝙧𝙗𝙞𝙙𝙙𝙚𝙣 𝘿𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚𝙨

15.Confession 🖤🤍

It had been one week.

One week since James last saw Net.

One week since he felt something he shouldn't have.

One week took it all to also make James to fall for Jan more. But...

Was he using her to forget Net all these days?

He never accepted that. Maybe all those feelings for Jan he buried had finally started to blossom into flowers again. Which he wanted to take care of.

However Jan didn't want to see James getting attracted to her in that way.

Her smile, her silly jokes, her badass attitude, her makeup and appearance- everything seem to fade with each day she spent here.

Jan is or particularly was a model. One of the best models in LA. She started to pursue her carrier by leaving all of her important things in Bangkok. Leaving James to deal with his unbearable problems alone. She used to cry at night knowing how cruel she was to leave him alone and be greedy to achieve her dreams instead.

He became a mafia, she couldn't stop him. Even if James didn't wanted to become like his parents, all the pain made him otherwise.

If she was there, maybe she could've saved James. And could've....

Saved herself.

A sigh escaped Jan's lips as she stared down at her chocolate tea. She loved it a lot and James already told the maids to make her it every morning. He made sure Jan was comfortable here in his house.

She didn't go to her own house in her hometown. James didn't insist her to stay at his place knowing it wouldn't be such an ideal thing for a cold mafia like him to do. Regardless when Jan said she wanted to stay here on her own, he couldn't be happier.

So here she was, drinking her tea on her bed. Her hair messily falling over her shoulders. She had very long hair but cut them half way through shoulders.

James loved her long healthy hair more but he couldn't care much for that anyway.

It was her choice. But was it?

"Jan?" Someone called out her name making her turn around with half sleepy eyes.

"O James..." Jan yawned while putting the tea on the table. James felt his heartbeat increasing hearing Jan calling his name with a sleepy tone.

Sleepy tone is almost like moan. That's what he thinks.

"Uh... Good morning" his cold voice boomed in as he looked away. Jan chuckled knowing the man was probably trying his best to maintain his image as a mafia.

Poor boy failed it though.

"Stop pulling the manly act Jamessu, it doesn't suit you" Jan said with a chuckle.

How much of a beautiful scene was it for James to witness.

He loved her laugh the most. Even though she changed a lot since childhood. The smile was still the same.

"Shut the fuck up Jan. It's my real voice." James sulked while sitting beside her.

"Sure sure pretty boy." Jan chuckled as her hands grabbed the cup again before sipping the tea with a soft noise.

James stare down at her as she was looking forward at the window watching the calm environment. He couldn't help but smile seeing how her lips touched the cup.

As it says, he wanted to be the cup so badly.

Her eyes never leaving the front, those brown eyes felt hypnotizing even though they didn't met his one. Her brown hair falling over her shoulders as the pajamas she was still wearing gave her a soft normal girl vibes.

"Staring is bad pretty boy"

"W-what? I'm not staring. You're ugly... Why would I stare at you?" James said feeling his cheeks heating. Not forgetting he cursed himself for stuttering.

"Yes I'm ugly for sure." Jan giggled.

"Hey you know I didn't mean that. I'm just like this." James grumbled assuming she got hurt.

"Nah it's fine." Jan said James could feel she avoided the whole topic with just a smile.

What happened to her during all these past years?

"What brings you here by the way?" Jan asked sipping her tea again.

"Umm I forgot" he laughed but didn't wanted to tell her that actually he wanted to just spend time with her casually like they used to back then.

"Hmm... Can I ask you something?" Jan

"If I say no you'll still fucking ask it." James said Jan chuckled hearing him. He indeed didn't change.

But she did.

"Do you like that guy named umm... What was his name? Uhh! Internet ?" Jan said James coughed hearing Jan.

"Internet ?" Jan started to laugh making James confused.

"Isn't it his name? Weird tho" Jan said.

"God damn Jan, it's not uhhh...I can't stop laughing. It's Net " James started to cough for laughing so much.

"Not Internet" he finished while wiping his tears.

"Ohhh... It's same tho" Jan said with a smirk.

"So do you like him?" Jan's same question made him to stop laughing as he looked at Jan.

His eyes held some emotions she couldn't figure it out. But more likely she could at least say he was disappointed.

"What the fuck are you asking?" James coldly looked at Jan making her surprised.

"Why?" Jan Asked.

"He is the last person on earth I would nearly even like. Damn I wanna fucking kill him!" James stood up going towards the window.

"It seemed otherwise that day. When he left, it was obvious you were hurt." Jan said.

"That's not fucking true. I'm a human but when it comes to him my only emotion is hatred. Nothing else."  James said.

''Really ?'' Jan stood beside him while analyzing his race. James had red cheeks and even he tried to hide it, this was obvious that he was flustered and angry at the same time.

"I don't think so Jamessu. Yes you said a lot of cruel and inhumane words to him but I could see it in your eyes that you didn't wanted to. You didn't wanted to hurt him." Jan said.

"Fucking stop your mouth Jan. You should know your limits." Jan felt hurt but knowing how sensitive topic she was talking about, she shrugged off his words.

"Okay. Cool down pretty boy, I just wanted to help" Jan was about to turn around when James grabbed her wrist.

Jan widen her eyes totally not expecting this. His eyes were stoic and emotionless but his cheeks and ears tint red. His lips trembled and Jan could sense something was coming.

"God no... Please no no no" she thought to herself wanting to leave already. She didn't wanted to face this situation. 

''"Listen Jan. I don't like him but I do like someone'' James said.

"Fuck no no no no please James no"

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''I like you Jan Chaiyasing ''

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