𝙁𝙤𝙧𝙗𝙞𝙙𝙙𝙚𝙣 𝘿𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚𝙨

21.Pretty boy 🖤🤍

He couldn't sleep.

 The whole night might have been shorter for him now if he had closed his eyes for once bit. But sleep couldn't get his address. His eyes were opened , not even blink once in a while. Jan's words are still ringing in his ears .It was hard for him to swallow what she told him this morning.

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Flashback

''I m dying James''

"What ? This ain't fuckin funny"

"I've brain cancer..."

"What the fuck are you saying ?! I don't buy your cheap fuckin bullshit!" james stood up right away, anger and fear glistening through those brownish eyes.

"How about now ?" jan sighed, placing her hand on her hair before gripping on the strands and pulling it away indicting it was a... Wig.

james's eyes widened as he shakily stood up, seeing her bald.

"Isn't it enough? You always knew... I loved long hair, makeup... Looks and appearance... That's why m-maybe God t-took it away from me... Cause I was too selfish all these years" jan says as tears rolled down her cheeks.

james's lips parted as he stared down at her crying face. He couldn't believe it, for him jan was one of his closest ones that mattered to him  so how was he supposed to process the harsh news?

"jan... Tell me this is a lie... An act ? Please say it isn't true... Please" james mutters but loud enough for the sick girl on the bed to hear.

"I wish it was... I've one month left... Doctors tried their best but couldn't do enough... It was already too late. That's why I came back from America. To spend my last days here with you..." jan says with a slight smile.

What was she so happy about? Why she had to smile and make it harder for the already sad man?

"No... No it's not true... jan I'll go away or do whatever you want. just don't lie" james said, clenching her hands in his.

jan looked down at their hands and noticed a drop of tear falling on them. With widen eyes she looked back at james.

The sight before her shocked her like never.

james was... Crying.

jan never saw him crying. she actually forgot that the man was also a human.

"james... I-"

"See ? You made james supamongkon cry. Now don't leave me... and don't lie" james sobbed, not having the will to wipe his tears.

"james... I'm not lying. I wish it was all a lie but... It's not"

"Why ? Why ? Why ?!" james yelled as more tears streamed down.

jan couldn't do anything. Her state wasn't good but james couldn't see it yet. He was being selfish now. All he wanted was jan to stay. He didn't have the strength to lose any other loved ones.

"Don't make it tough for me to leave. It was too hard for me to accept this jamessu. Now I'm fine with it. It's my fault I left you and everything behind and greedily ran behind money and fame. I became a model, success, money and popularity... I had it all and all of these got so much of me that I didn't see what was happening to me. I don't know how this happened but it wasn't sudden jamessu... I did this to myself." jan stopped as tears again started to stream down.

"I left and destroyed both you and me" jan completed before hugging the man and cried out all that she was left with.

james sat there as her body kept embracing his one. He stared at nothing as tears fell and fell until he blinked stopping them. He pulled away from the hug and kept staring at her eyes. He now noticed those dark circles around her eyes, those dry lips, no lip gloss, no makeup, her bald head. Her body thin and fragile.