𝙁𝙤𝙧𝙗𝙞𝙙𝙙𝙚𝙣 𝘿𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚𝙨

29.Letter 🖤🤍

"Fuck off" net snarled at the guard in front of him.

The guard hesitantly bowed before leaving the man alone.

net was pissed, not forgetting angry and heart broken as well. It hadn't even been one day to their love's start and it had to already crumble down.

It also scared net, he'll never be in james's heart again. His mind told him james just used him to get over jan. Nothing less or more.

It weighed on his heart. He felt so helpless yet nobody could help him. He wished jan was alive so that she could advice him what to do in a situation like this. He knew he was being very selfish but what did he expected from himself?

He was brought up like this, to think about him and only about himself.

But james did change him, now he wanted to think about himself and james as well.

But james wasn't giving him any chance, was he?

"I don't even know what the fuck I did to make him this angry! He won't even answer my God damn calls!" net yelled to himself before kicking a chair away, hard.

Plopping on the chair in his office, he wished everything to go back to normal.

And maybe his wish was heard.

The sudden ring of his phone jolted the man up. Ecstasy worked the best of him as he saw it was no other than his james supamongkon.

With a wide smile he picked up the call.

"Hello?" net's heart surprisingly was beating fast. He didn't know why but it did.

"Uh hi net... Can we meet?" james's voice was stiffen as if he cried. It didn't make net happy for sure.

"Yeah sure. Where?"

"On that bridge?"

"Sure, I'm coming in half an hour" with that he cut the call.

For somewhat reason net was anxious. He just hoped it was nothing serious like breaking up or something. But were they in a relationship to begin with?

net shrugged off all the unwanted thoughts before taking a shower and got ready to meet him.

getting in his car, he soon arrived at the place. He could already see james standing by the edge of the bridge, looking down at the lake.

The sight calmed the restless net without a reason.

Walking to james, he also stood beside him before setting his eyes below as well. james glanced at the man and then again where he was before.

"Sorry" is what james said.

"Are you really though?" net blankly said, he had swear he wouldn't act like a jerk but he couldn't help himself from being one.

"Yes I am. Do I need to prove it?"

"Yes, by kissing me" net said with a grin taking the man aback.

"W-what?"

"You heard me. You got mad at me without any reason, punched me so hard that I bled, I deserve that much at least"

"You're unbelievable" james mumbled embarrassingly before pecking net's cheeks.

Even that light peck warmed net's cold cheeks. He turned to james before giving a dark smirk.

"Not on cheeks, on here" net pointed at his soft lips which were curling into a sly grin.

"Oh fuck really?" james groaned before he pressed his lips against net's one, ready to pull away but oh will net let him slip away?

net firmly grasped the back of james's head and intensified the kiss by slipping his tongue into james's mouth without waiting for permission. Their tongues intertwined in a passionate exchange. net bit down on james's lips and grinned with satisfaction before breaking the kiss.

As james exhaled, small puffs of hot air escaped his mouth, contrasting with the cold winter season that had arrived. However, despite the chilly atmosphere, the kiss they shared had managed to warm them both up, leaving them feeling hot and content.

net felt aroused seeing james's cheeks red and pink lips swollen, mouth parted that let puff of forced air out.

Oh how much that turned him on.

net cleared his throat by coughing before looking away from the addictive sight.

"So, are you okay now?" james asked.

"Pretty much I am."

"God, drop the lie."

"I'm not lying"

"Your eyes tell the otherwise" net eyed the man who got flustered.

"Whatever"

"Look, jan wouldn't be happy seeing you like this, so for her sake try to overcome this pain" net finally said what he had in mind from the morning.

It made the other male look at net with a surprised face.

"Wow that was so generous of you" james said with a chuckle.

"Are you mocking me?"

"No, it's just so unusual of you"

"Surely it is"

"But thanks, I feel a little better honestly" james confessed which made net surprised.

"Wow should I become a therapist?" net chuckled making jan smile too.

"You know, I got a letter... jan wrote for me" net turned to james instantly seeing the man had a slight smile on his lips.

"What's written in it? Can I know?" net hesitantly asked wondering if he has the right to know.

"Of course, that's why I called you actually"

"Oh, so you didn't come here to apologize? Man that hurts" net dramatically held his chest like he's in pain resulting james to hit him playfully.

"She wrote that... She wants me to be happy... With you. She wants me to leave this dirty world and live like a normal guy... She told me to visit her grave sometimes, silly girl wanting something so cruel." james paused looking away before continuing again.

"She said She's sorry for whatever she did. She told me to not cry over her that much, she told me to remember her with a smile on my face. She told me to love her always like a best friend." james sniffed at the last part.

"But you love her like something else though" net unknowingly spoke not even realizing he did.

james turned to net, starlet.

"What are you saying? I do love her as a best friend." james absently replied, net felt the heaviness on his heart getting lighter from the words.

"wait really?"

"Yes, I know I told you earlier that day... That I loved her... The truth is I wanted to distract my heart from you... I know I'm so cruel to use my almost dead friend as a excuse... it kills me But the truth is I always loved you net" james said with a smile, his rosy cheeks fluffing with the smile.

net widened his eyes in disbelief upon hearing something that felt like a dream. He was unsure of the emotions he was experiencing when james spoke, feeling confused about whether he was happy, surprised, on the verge of tears, or simply experiencing a louder heartbeat from knowing the truth.

Maybe it was all of the above. But what he knew for sure was that he has fallen hard for the man in front of him.

"net ?" james was confused seeing net just looking at him blankly with his lips parted.

And then without any words net hugged him, tightly sensing james's heartbeat just as loud as his.

He closed his eyes, not noticing how widely he was smiling. His teeth showing as he did.

james also smiled before hugging the man back.

james realized it a while ago that,

He loves warm hugs but he loves net far more.