Extreme Attachment (wlw)

Chapter 1

I wake up with a skull-numbing pain that'll probably break my head into two. In my 26 years of existence this is a first that I almost consider just never waking up. I groan out loud while squeezing my eyes shut. It's not helping that the sunlight is directed at my face, almost blinding me. 

"Fuck" Well, you demanded for her to fuck you. Hard, may I add? So much for self-respect. 

Nag apoy ang pisngi ko, ganoon din kabilis isa isang bumalik ang lahat ng alaala kagabi. That will forever hunt me, I guess, until I die and rot. I will never understand where that aggressiveness comes from. That aggressiveness and wrong decisions at 2 a.m. lead me here. With pounding in my head and an ache between my legs. 

I shiver when I feel a breeze pass by my butt cheek while I'm still in the nude on the marble floor. Hinablot ko ang kumot na dumulas at kahit na makirot parin,nilibot ko ang tingin sa loob ng salas.

"Fuck you, Sapphire Cordova! God! Can't she fuck me on the bed? Is that too much to ask?" Bulong ko sa sarili ng may imahe nanamang bumalik.

Okay, yeah, I may or may not be the one to blame for this. I ask her to fuck me on this exact floor. The words that I used perhaps egged and provoked her. But still, diko naman alam na se-seryosohin nya. Napaka pikon masyado.

Nahagip ng mata ko ang usual note nya sakin everytime na kailangan nya ng maunang umalis. Far from my annoyance earlier. When I read her name, the little heart she always left on her letter was enough to make me smile and help me forget about all the pain. 

Kaya lang for a minute lang iyon,dahil pag tayung pag tayo ko,muntik pa akong bumuwal. My legs fail me again. Just like it did yesterday. Nag ikot ako ng mata ng ma alala kung gaano ako kabilis bumukaka para sa babaeng iyon.

Hinablot ko ang damit na pinag hubaran na naka tupi ng maayos sa black na leather couch. Napa ngiti nanaman ako ng mapansin yung new pair of undies na alam kong ni-ready rin ni Sapphire.

These days, I don't really know if I hate her or like her, to be honest. But then again, we agree with this setup because we both don't like commitment or the stress that comes with relationships. 

Sa edad kong ito,mas convenient narin para sakin ang meron kami ni Sapphire. Because I will just be a huge disappointment, sa palagay ko magiging pinaka worst girlfriend din ako if ever. Wala na akong time para sa ibang tao, sa sarili ko nga lang kulang pa eh.

Tumungo ako sa kusina at inabutan na doon yung breakfast ko. Medyo maligamgam na ang kape, so I'm sure that Sapphire left a while ago. Namuhalan ako sa french toast habang chine check ang GC namin ng friends ko.

They are all asking about my whereabouts now. Saka ko napansing alas nueve na pala ng umaga. And kahit na di man may ari ng kumpanyang pinapasukan nya, mas maaga pa yatang pumapasok si Sapphire kaysa doon sa taong mismong nagbubukas ng pintuan ng office nila.

I'm alive and well. Don't worry about me guys, I'm a big girl.

After sending that, pumunta ako sa kwarto ni Sapphire at nag decide na mag shower na muna. She really hates it when I invade her space like this, but what she doesn't know won't kill her.

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"Finally!" Malakas na turan ni Alba ng makita ako.

"Hey, I'm sorry." Humatak ako ng upuan, and after settling down, I gulped down the glass of orange juice in front of Prim. 

"What the heck?" Mag so-sorry sana ako ulit ng alisin ni Prim ang scarf nya sa leeg at ibalot sakin. "Why do you have that huge bruise on your neck?" Nahintatakutan pa sya.