Better- SeongSang

58 - Seonghwa

I barged into Mingi's room. I know Hongjoong is here. Ignoring Mingi's dorm mate.

They both turned around when I opened the door.

"I did it."

They dropped the controllers.

"The college thing right?" Hongjoong asked.

I nodded.

"Oh good!"

"Congrats dude!" Mingi smiled.

I smiled. I then started to freak out.

"Oh. I was wondering when the mental break down was going to happen." Mingi said.

I fanned my face. I took my sweater off. I started to hyperventilate. "I don't think I should be going abroad."

"What?! Why?" Hongjoong had me sit down.

"Because!... Because of Yeosang! What else?!"

"Well maybe because you're scared to be alone over there. You might not be able to have enough contact with friends and family. You might end up getting sick, stabbed, or shot and none of us will get to you on time." Mingi kept listing things as I stared at him in horror.

Hongjoong slapped him. "Dude, shut up! You're making it worse!"

San barged in. "The Seonghwa has done it!" We all turned to him. He stared at us. "Ok, I definitely missed something. What's going on?"

"He is freaking out and now he wants to back out of going abroad." Hongjoong answered.

"I mean he still can back out it's not like he started applying already..." Mingi said.

San sat down next to me. He slapped me and then shook me. "You can't go back!" He pulled me closer. Way too close for comfort. "You will not go back. You are going to do the thing you want to do the most! You will go abroad. You will have the time of your fucken life!" He some how brought me closer. "You will not back out now. Do you understand me?"

I pulled away.

He grabbed and shook me again. "ANSWER ME! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!"

"YES!"

"I CAN'T HEAR YOU!"

"YES!"

"What the hell is this?" Hongjoong asked. "I need new friends." He sighed

San sighed and stood up. He fixed his clothes. "I did what I needed to do." He then walked out of the room.

We just stared at the door weirdly.

He walked back in. "I forgot that I came to hang out with you guys. I was just trying to make a point."

"I definitely need new friends." Hongjoong whispered. "Y'all are just... dumb."

I tried to slow my breathing. "What the hell am I going to tell Yeosang?"

"Just tell him you're going abroad. Easy." Mingi shrugged.

"It's not that simple." Hongjoong rolled his eyes.

"He has been kinda of emotional since the whole summer break incident. So telling him I'm going abroad isn't going to be simple at all."

"Summer break incident?" San and Mingi were extremely confused.

I really don't want to explain it. I don't think Yeosang would want anyone to know.

"Seonghwa and Yeosang were going to have sex but Yeosang cried and he hit Seonghwa." Hongjoong quickly said.

San and Mingi stared at me. I stared at Hongjoong.