Better- SeongSang

59 - Yeosang

The date with Seonghwa was great. He had gotten me a couple of books I've been wanting to read for a while. I didn't even expect him to get me something.

He had given me a bouquet of roses. I had set them in a vase on my desk. I had just changed the water in the vase and sat the vase in the corner. Making sure they get some light but not too much.

I walked out of my room and I smiled as I saw Seonghwa sitting on the floor building the lego set that I had bought him.

"Seonghwa get off the floor. We got to go to class. We can't be late. You know we will be locked out of class if we're late." I gently took his hand.

"But I want to finish this." He whined.

"I know but we got to get to class. Let's go."

He groaned. "Fine." He got up and walked to his room. I stared at all the Lego pieces on the floor and the coffee table. Sighing. I had to be careful where I stepped. Making it over all of it, picking up my backpack, and waited for him.

Once he was done, he quickly took my hand and pulled me out of the room.

We slowly walked to class. Well more like I had to drag him to class.

"Noooo! I don't wanna! Tests make me depressed!" He tried to get away. I shoved him into class. We were barely able to make it.

Sitting down in class he flopped onto his chair.

What is up with him today? He is usually so excited to do tests to try to show me up. Is dating going to be a issue with this now? We have talked about this. We aren't going to let our relationship get in the way of us being competitive.

Is he just not feeling well? Did he not study? What is going on?

I was going to call him but our teacher came in and had everyone quiet down.

The teacher passed out the tests to everyone along with pencils and papers. Putting our backpacks in the front of the class. Putting all our phones in the basket that the teacher is going to hold onto.

He explained to us how important these tests are. He explained a lot of other things that I really don't remember.

We have two hours to do this portion and that's it.

Once he started the time, we opened the booklets, and got started. Ugh, Korean. Why is the damn national language so damn early in the morning?

Those damn three hours felt so damn long. The twenty minute break felt like nothing. I would occasionally take a glance at Seonghwa. Every time I looked at him he was just staring at the page.

Thankfully we were given a hour lunch break. I quickly turned to Seonghwa. He kept his head down. "Seonghwa are you ok?"

He sat up and smiled at me. "Yeah. Why wouldn't I be ok?"

I shrugged. "Well, you didn't seem all there during the test."

"Just a little tired."

He is lying to me. I know when he is tired. "Oh ok. Well we do have an hour break. Do you want to go outside?"

He smiled. "Sure." He got up and left class. I quickly followed behind him. I held his hand.

Getting outside and sitting on the a small patch of grass outside the building. He quickly laid on my lap. I played with his hair.

"Going to take a nap?" He hummed. "Do you want to eat? We have another five hours for testing." He shook his head.

He turned over and hid his face in my stomach. "Yeosang." He muttered.

"Yeah?"

"Are you sure you want to go to Seoul University?" Why would he ask me that?

"Of course. I have always wanted to go. You know this. Why are you asking me this now?"

He didn't answer me.

"Seonghwa?"

I slightly moved him and he is asleep.

Maybe he really is tired. I sighed... but that's such a strange thing to ask me. He knows this about me. Everyone knows that school is my top priority. Seonghwa out of everyone should definitely know.

I stared down at him.

I bit my bottom lip. Now that I think about it, he has never told me what schools he is going to apply to.

I felt a weird anxiety at the thought of him and I not being in the same school together. Is that why he asked me? Does he think we are both aren't going to be accepted into the same school?

We aren't going to be able to.

My chest hurts.

I covered my mouth. I felt like crying. I have never been separated from him. How the hell are I going to go through college without him?

I forced myself to take a deep breath. I tried to calm myself down as quickly as possible.

It's just school. It's not like one of us is going to the other side of the country, let alone the other side of the world. We're fine. We're ok. The only time we are away from each other is going to be school days.

Taking in one last deep breath. I felt calm now.

I looked down at him again. Pushing some strands of hair out of his face. I smiled but I wasn't happy.

Does he think there are better schools out there? Is Seoul University not going to accept us both? They most likely won't but... What other schools are there? Has he found one that he is willing to go to? Does he not want me to go? Does he want me to go to a different school with him?

I need to know why he asked me that.

I pulled my phone out and checked the time. Five more minutes until the next exam starts.

Shaking Seonghwa, I tried my best to not scare him. "Seonghwa get up. We got to go back to class."

He whined but sat up anyways. He turned around and smiled at me. He gave me a kiss which I happily returned. Getting up and helping him up too.

We quietly walked to class.

Once we got to class, I really wanted to ask him but I couldn't. The teacher got right to taking roll again and passing out the next test.

Ugh!!!

I just want to go back to bed!

It was a long annoying and horrible eight hours of my life.