5sos imagines

That 3 am moment (Ashton)

I couldn't sleep for I had too many thoughts roaming free in my mind. Tears were running freely down my cheeks. I was sitting on the fire escape engulfed in darkness. At this moment I felt worthless, unwanted, lost, scared, breaking down, on the edge, lonely, stupid, just a burden, insignificant, crushed, depressed, upset, insecure, unloved, empty, nothing, hollow, misunderstood, wronged, victimized, distrustful, tortured, and most of all broken. I sat alone in my own empty world forgetting my boyfriend was sleeping on my bed in the other room. I let the tears fall and pulled my knees to my chest and sobbed with my head burrowed between. A light touch on my shoulder and a soft "Baby?" Alerted me that Ash had awoken. I slowly pulled my head up and looked at him and I knew from the way his face fell this was hard for him to see. Ash reached forward and lightly wiped away tears. He sat down and pulled me onto his lap. "What's wrong? You can tell me." Ash whispered placing a soft kiss to my temple. "It's just one of those 3 am moments you know the ones where you feel so many different ways but you can't describe it so all you can do is sit there and cry and then everything that's wrong with you and your life suddenly pops into your head and you just start crying more unable to stop and unable to clearly see how it could possibly get any better." I said pouring my heart out to him after having kept it in for so long. "I know that exact feeling." Ash agreed and held me close so my ear was on his heart the steady beat in my ear. "Can we make some tea?" I ask in a small voice. "Of course if that's what you'd like." he gave a small smile. "We walked to the kitchen and Ash lifted me onto the counter top and told me to sit. I watched quietly as he made two cups of tea absent mindedly running my fingers repeatedly over the small infinity tattoo on my wrist. Ash turned to me ready to hand me the tea when his gaze fell upon my wrist. "Darling what are you doing there." he asked softly taking my wrist. "It's just a tattoo. A reminder." I sniffed. "A reminder of what?"he asked looking intently into my eyes. "Life goes on, nothing lasts forever and pain will never last." I spoke softly before leaning in and kissing Ashton' s cheek. "That's beautiful just like you." He said. I giggled at the cheesyness of the line. "Of course now can we go back to bed? I'd rather just forget about this." I asked. "Sure c'mon." Ash said lifting me up bridal style. He layed me down in the bed and I Snuggled closer to him burrowing my face into the crook of my neck. "yn just promise me if you ever feel this way again and are crying like this again that you'll wake me up or call me and let me help you. I don't care what time or where in the world you or I am. I am always here for you ok?." Ash asked . "Okay." I whispered nodding as well before falling asleep the way you fall in love slowly then all at once.