this might be a long one 😉
Me and mattheo were in a heated argument and neither of us actually remember what it was about
mattheo was yelling at me, and blaming everything on me. I had enough of it. I glanced at my promise ring and i were slowly taking it off trying to not make mattheo notice but he did
he looked at my hands "don't you even dare do that." I could hear that he was mostly sad now because he knew that he ruined everything now
"I'm just tired okay mattheo."
he grabbed my wrists, gently "don't. please..."
his voice got quieter and more quiet at every word his grip also got tighter around my wrists but not tight enough to hurt me
*he looked at your eyes with his sad expression*
"i don't want to lose you, please dont leave me. i'm sorry." *he said that quietly, still holding my wrists*
he pulled me in, and hugged me tightly
" i swear...i really don't know why do i lose control sometimes..i'm sorry." he said that quietly because i could tell that he was on the verge of tears
he buried his face in my hair and took a deep breath
"i... don't want you to leave..i don't want to lose you...please don't." *he was barely able to speak because of holding in his sobs*
he was practically pleading me quietly. he was hugging me tightly, not wanting to loosen his grip at all because he was scared that I was gonna pull away from him
I sigh in frustration,I was tried of arguing with him I just wanted it to be how it used to, no arguing just us happy
he noticed me sighing and he slowly pulled away to look at me
he looked at me, his expression was still sad and guilty but he wanted to ask something
"I don't want to leave you matty, I don't. I'm just tired of arguing with you, I'm just tired of feeling like I might loose you everyday because I have no idea what your out there doing with your dad I just want us to be happy again"
he listened to me silently, and what i said made him freeze in place for a moment and a guilty expression was on his face again
he looked away in guilt and he let my wrists go
"i...i'm sorry." he said quietly, he also hated arguing with me...the only problem was that he was aggressive and he didn't know how to control his anger sometimes
"I know I know, I know it's hard baby"
he hesitantly reached his hand out to mine and he gently interlocked his fingers with mine
he looked down at our intertwined fingers and rubbed his thumb on the back of my hand
he looked up again and looked at me "will you... forgive me again? i swear i want to change for you...i don't want to ruin our relationship..."
he looked like he was pleading and asking me with his eyes if I'll forgive him
he was still rubbing his thumb on my hand, he was looking at my eyes now, trying to guess what were i thinking with that guilty expression still on his face
"I forgive you Mattheo."
he felt relieved instantly, but now he felt guilty because he hated himself for making me forgive him almost every day
he took a step forward to me, and slowly snaked his other arm around my waist and pulled me gently closer to him
he then pulled me into a tight hug and buried his face in my hair. he then took a deep breath, as if he was trying to calm himself down with my scent
