Corner Him

CH 19

Zypher POV

He left me again.

Kasalukuyan akong kumakain mag-isa ngayon.

I was alone in our house again, just as it used to be.

The only difference right now is that I can no longer communicate with mom and dad. There's no Skype in heaven anyway. I smiled bitterly while eating.

And I cannot contact my brother on the phone. I tried to call him when I woke up earlier, but I got no answer from him.

Kanina pagkagising ko ay nakaramdam agad ako ng gutom kaya agad akong bumaba sa kusina at hinanap sa reef kung may natira pa bang Carbonara na luto ni Kuya Kienn kagabi-at doon ko nakita iyong sticky note sa ibabaw ng pinaglalagyan ng pagkain.

Isang araw na lang ang hihintayin ko at makakapasok na muli ako ng paaralan. Ngayong araw ko rin bibisitahin ang mga magulang ni Nelima. Sa pagkakaalam ko kasi, nawalan ako ng malay kagabi at nananakit ang katawan ko pagkagising.

Luckily, there were no traces of bruises on my skin. But what happened to my best friend cut my heart into a million pieces. I tried to suppress my tears while still eating, but there was no attempt.

My heart throbbed, Nelima, not because I'm hardly in love, but because I was more than heartbroken when you left me.

I ended up crying again in my room. I just let my tears fall until they gave up.

I've never cried in front of her because all I want to do is show her how happy I was when we used to play together.

I just don't want to ruin the day when all she did was brighten up my day, just when I'm feeling sad because my parents forgot their flight to celebrate my 16th birthday.

I tried my best to properly breathe right now.

My best friend is my second heartbreak.

My family was my greatest heartbreak.

What did I do in my past life to deserve this deepest pain?

I let my emotional pain and tears control me right now. I'm not sure if I could have survived or died from this kind of pain.

Because last night I lost my consciousness after hearing the newscaster confirm that she's dead on the spot.

The splattered blood was enough to tell that it's impossible for my best friend to make her breathe last longer.

But I strongly believe in miracles to keep her alive. Yet the universe reminds me of false hope.

Jesus! Why does the world have to be cruel to my life? The stars aligned, but the lives of my mom, dad, and my best friend suddenly came to an end.

Sa kakaiyak ko ng matagal ay natagpuan ko na lang ang sarili ko na nakatulala. Nakatitig na ako sa picture frame namin ni Nelima. Sa kanan nito ay family picture namin.

They say eyes can define someone's true feelings. I think I can't show how to be truly happy anymore.

The pain really stings my heart to see them with no life.

"Hija," marahan na bumukas ang pinto at agad na inalo ako ni manang.

Muling namuo ang mga luha sa mata ko.

"Tahan na,"

"Lahat na lang sila iniwan ako," hinanakit na sambit ko. Hindi ko mapigilan ang hikbi sa mga labi ko.

"Sssh...hindi natin hawak ang buhay, anak, kaya magpakatatag sa ka habang nandito pa tayo sa mundo."

Sa mga oras na ito, hinayaan ko ang mga iyak at hikbi ko ang kumausap at magparating kung anong nararamdaman ko.

Dinamayan ako ni manang hanggang sa kumalma ako ng araw na iyon. Tinuloy ko rin ang pagpunta sa bahay nila Nelima. Isang masakit na yakap ang bumungad sa akin. Iyak ng iyak si tita habang niyayakap n'ya ako. Habang ang ama naman ni Nelima ay mahina ang mga mata habang nasa gilid lang namin ito nakatayo. Animo'y ano mang segundo ay maiiyak na ito.