Again

28 (M)

HANNI POV

I'm about to lose my mind. 

Minji is taking forever and I just want to talk to her. It's obvious that she's avoiding me. I mean, who wouldn't?

My brain took about half an hour to process everything that just happened. I didn't even want to leave the house. The last thing I wanted to do was break Jungwon's heart, after everything he's done for me it's not fair.

But I still dressed up and got ready. I couldn't even tell the girls about it. They think I'm happy with Jungwon and I don't want them to worry about me anymore. 

I tried telling him once I got into his car but no words were leaving my mouth. All I could do was smile and nod. We walked around Seoul and explored all the random shops and food stalls. I wanted to give this one last chance so I tried to relax and enjoy the date but my mind kept going back to Minji.

When we got to the bar I was tired. Tired of being a complete asshole. I wasn't myself at all today and I could tell he noticed. He got us both drinks but barely touched his. Meanwhile I was drinking like I wanted to see the light. 

When he finally spoke up and asked if I was okay I had to tell him the truth. So with the confidence I gained from the two glasses I just chugged down I said, "I wanna end this".

I don't know what was worse. The fact that he smiled at me and said that he understood or the way he asked if he could still drive me home. Why is he so caring? 

I always knew he was too good for me. He deserves someone better. Even after I rejected his offer he started to joke around and made both of us laugh. Before he left, his final request was to give me a goodbye hug. 

I felt so shitty but I still hugged him goodbye. He tried offering to pay for my ride home but I refused. He left after that and I ordered another drink.

The bartender took too long to make my drink so I just drank whatever Jungwon left in the cup. I wanted to drown my thoughts away. I felt like a complete bitch, that was the second time I'd let someone down.  

After I finished the fourth and strongest drink I was starting to feel a bit dizzy. That's when some random man walked up to me. I didn't give a fuck about what he was saying and I just wanted him to leave. 

But then he started touching my arms. He smelt like shit, literally. I wanted to throw up. I wasn't even listening to whatever nonsense he was blabbing. I prayed that he would see someone else and hit on them instead. 

Finally, my prayers were answered and whoever was watching over me sent me my savior in the form of...Kim Minji. 

Oh and Ryujin too I guess.  

I thought I was drunk to the point of passing out and that it was all a dream. My mind blanked. I thought I was hallucinating. But then Ryujin appeared and got between me and the stinky man. 

My mind blanked and all I could do was watch them go back and forth. That was until Ryujin asked me if I wanted to leave with the man who I didn't know, get drunk to the point of losing my senses, and possibly get raped maybe even killed by multiple people.