Love is gonna get you killed

Betrayed (Not really but yeah)

Suddenly, I saw my mum slamming the door and opening it. Fuck. We were still very close with Ryan so she would immediately suspect what had happened.

<<What in the name of God is going on here?>>, she yelled angrily.

<<Mum, let me explain ->>

<<What is there to explain Turner, huh?>>

<<He's just...>>

<<He's just what Charlotte?>>

Nobody, nofuckingbody

<<He's just a classmate of mine>>

And when I thought I was going to get away with this, he just opened his fucking mouth to speak.

<<Just a classmate of yours? I wouldn't say that after what happened a minute ago, Miss Turner>>

I hope you burn in hell, asshole.

<< Charlotte what did the two of you did here?>>, she asked with an calm but at the same time angry tone.

<<Absolutely nothing, he's talking bullshit! You choose to believe a stranger than her own daughter?>>

That must have hurt because I saw her quick mood change but she tried to hide it as she always does.

<<I choose to believe what I saw, Charlotte>>

<<You barely even saw us>>

<<I gotta go...>>, he said just to get away so easily, although it was his fault.

<<You're not going anywhere. You got me into this, now you have to fix it>>

<<Let him leave, Charlotte and make sure I never see him in my house again>>

And just like that he left. And what was I left with? My mum who was preparing a whole ass conversation about what just happened. I hate my life.

<<Okay you can ground me now. Do whatever you want, yell at me, take away my phone, lock me in my room for months, say I'm stupid and a bad daughter and that you're disappointed in me and claim Aimee is the best daughter you've ever had>>

She took my hand and we both sat on my bed.

<<Sweety, I'm never gonna say and do those things to you. I'm sorry if I've been too harsh on you and mean and angry all the time, but I just don't want to lose you again. I thought that being strict and mean to you is a way of keeping you safe and close to me. Apparently I'm wrong. In fact, this is taking you away from me and I realise that now. I'm really sorry for everything. And the other day at the restaurant, I didn't know what to do actually and you saved the situation • with a violent way but that's okay. I really appreciate you standing up for all of us and I surely shouldn't have treated you that way. Your sister and dad aren't mad at you, it was just the first time after a long time they met you so they were confused and concerned. Don't worry about them , they still love you and so do I. And don't worry about Katelyn either. We'll find a solution for that later. I just want you to know that I'm here to help you and advise you for some things. Feel free to tell me anything any time but be careful on what you're doing, okay? I don't want anything bad happen to you. Now tell me what happened with Ryan?>>

<<How do you know it's him?>>

<<Honey, I'm a mother, I know a lot of things>>

<<Well as you can see, we kissed>>

<<I know that, tell me something else, for example how you feel, how it happened and stuff like that>>

<<I feel shit, it happened after a long  fight, that's it>>

<<Oh come onee. Why do you feel like that? It was your first kiss, you're supposed to be happy after this>>

<<Not all first kisses are fun and exciting, mum>>

<<Seriously Charlotte, what happened?>>

***

It's been a week and me and Ryan haven't spoke to eachother yet. I barely even see him at school anymore. Is that driving me crazy? Yes. Should I care? No. Do I care?

Since it's finally weekend, I invited the girls over to talk about what had happened. When they arrived, each one of them had brought a box of soft cookies in different flavours, chips, ice cream, a lot, and soft drinks. I actually don't know why but who cares. They left the bargains on the dinning table and they started looking at me like I had killed their mothers.

<<So... You wanted to tell us something, what is it?>>, said Jess.

<<Be careful because if I find out you're lying to us, you're going to be in big trouble>>, said Hannah with her classic style.

<<Relax, I'm not going to confess the commission of a crime to you>>

<<Thank god because I thought you were going to do that>>, said Miranda with an ironic tone.

<<Okay, do you want to listen to what happened or not?>>

<<YES!>>, they all shouted.

<<Well, I kissed Ryan. I mean he kissed me. Ryan and I kissed>>

They all looked at me with a shock on their faces at the same time. I didn't  know who to look at first. I was one hundred percent sure they would all act like this, I expected it. However I wasn't sure how to deal with this. Hannah especially had the "You should've told me the next minute after it happened" look and that means she was about to kill me.

<<When you say you kissed, you mean like kissed kissed or kissed kissed ?>>, Miranda finally found the strength to talk after her long pause.

<<I don't know what I mean, okay? It just happened. I wasn't expecting it at all and I'm not sure how I feel about that>>

<<Do you want to talk about it?>>

<<I don't know that either>>

<<Well that's the reason we came, isn't it?>>,said Jessica.

<<Shut up Jess>>, Miranda looked at her angrily. <<We are also here to help her deal with this and talk to us if she wants to>>

<<Yes, right, I'm sorry I didn't mean it that way>>

I was aware that Jessica didn't mean it that way and didn't want to pressure me.  She was just so excited to learn the news and the gossip.

<< That's alright, I just want to process what actually happened first and then I'll be ready to talk>>

<<It's okay we understand and we can help you do that if you let us>>, Hannah said kindly.

<<That'll be great, thanks>>

***

After a while, the girls left and I was there alone with my thoughts. My mum had been to work all day and I didn't have anything to do. I decided to listen to music for a bit and relax. While I was doing that, I received a message from someone unknown. I was worried and the first person that came to mind was Katelyn. I didn't want to be involved with anything including her and get into any trouble. I was sick of her and of what she had done again. I supposed it wasn't her, but someone younger. I kinda didn't want to open the message because I didn't want some virus to be stuck in my phone. A minute later I opened it. It was a video showing Ryan kissing a girl from school. What the fuck? A few days ago, he was in my room kissing me and confessing his stupid feelings for me. I was so confused about my own feelings now too. I'm not sure if I felt jealous, angry, betrayed, or heartbroken. Betrayed, that's what I felt I guess. But why? He wasn't even my boyfriend, my friend, my lover, or something. He wasn't even in love with me, neither was I. I should have known that he was dating other girls and making out with them. He's a player , he does whatever he wants. Then why did that bother me so much?

But the real question is "Who sent me that video and what were they trying to achieve with that?".