In His Kiss

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Laure Ri Daza's Point of View

I am losing sleep. Paulit-ulit pa rin sa isip ko ang nangyari nang mga gabi na iyon. The moment Hiro told me that he loves me and he wanted to claim me as his. I understand that there is definitely an underlying attraction between us. All along we both knew that crossing the line isn't something we couldn't afford. He also told me that it was suffocating to stay here. Kaya kailangan niyang umalis. Pero bakit niya sinasabi ngayon na wala na siyang balak umalis? What made him decide to stay? I saw how his body turned frigid when he received those text messages. Something about his actions doesn't click at all. Napatingin na lang ako sa kawalan habang iniisip ito.

I don't know who I am going to turn to. Hindi naman pwede si Cassidy, dahil siya na mismo ang nagsabing lumayo ako kay Hiro. Hindi rin ako pwede magsabi kay Mirage. She doesn't have any ounce of idea what I am putting myself into. I practically have few people around me. Sa totoo lang ay bilang lang talaga sa daliri ko ang mga taong nasa paligid ko kaya ayaw ko ng bawasan pa ito.

Now I am alone to solve this problem. I don't have anyone to turn to but myself. His confession felt surreal. That night, I should have ended it with Hiro nice and clean. Pero hindi na niya ako binigyan ng pagkakataon na sumagot. He told me how much he's willing to wait and that broke my heart to pieces. I can't take his feelings. My parents were already expecting that I will marry Creed. Everyone in our hometown was also thinking the same. I couldn't imagine my life disappointing my parents. When I told my parents that I am going to marry Creed, they were happy and proud of me. Kahit hindi man lang nagsalita si Dad at nakita ko sa mukha niya na gusto niya si Creed para sa akin. He looked relieved that Creed and I will marry each other. Parang iyon lang ang unang beses kong nakita si Dad na nagustuhan niya ang naging desisyon ko. He like Creed even when he was young. Of course he likes him better now. That's why I keep telling myself that Creed and I are predestined. Yet I wasn't sure anymore. Later on, there's something prickly in my eyes. Pero agad kong pinunasan ang mga namumuo na luha sa aking mga mata at inalala na nasa trabaho nga pala ako. I don't want anyone see me crying in work and being emotional. I hate the idea of being at work now that I've realized that Hiro is also here in the same building as me. Hindi naman ako pwedeng umalis na lang sa kumpanya dahil lang naka hookup ko ang CEO. My promotion is just around the corner. I needed that promotion. I've been working on that for the past few years. Hindi ko ito palilipasin. Everything becomes so complicated. And when things get complicated, I couldn't make proper decisions.

All my life, I never really make decisions for myself. I let my parents dictate what I have to do. I let Creed decide for me too. Because it's easier that way. I don't have to be responsible for anything.

"Laure, why are you still here?" Napaangat ang mukha ko nang biglang dumaan sa may gilid ko si Sir Rico.

"What do you mean, Sir Rico?" I asked. That was so sudden. Bakit kaya bigla na lang akong tinawag ni Sir Rico. Ganon na ba ako kalunod sa mga iniisip ko na pati pagdating ni Sir Rico ay hindi ko na napansin?

"Mr. Stanislaski wants you in his office," at dahil medyo malakas ang pagkabigkas ni Sir Rico nito ay nagtinginan sa akin halos lahat ng tao na nandito sa floor. Is it just me or everyone really looked at my direction? Maybe wondering why the great Hiro Stanislaski is calling me at this hour?

"Now. Kaya hindi ko alam bakit hindi ka pa rin kumikilos? Is there any problem?" Walang sabi-sabi na tumayo ako sa swivel chair at humarap kay Sir Rico.

"I'll go to his office right away Sir Rico. Thank you for reminding me." I shrugged all those stares when I left and went directly to Hiro's office. Medyo nararamdaman ko ang paginit ng aking pisngi dahil dito. What happened to our deal that he won't ever call me in his office? What happened to his words that he's going to wait? Maraming tanong ang naglalaro sa aking isip at kahit sa pagpunta ko sa kanyang office ay hindi ko namalayan.