In His Kiss

Chapter 44

Chapter 44

Laure Ri Daza's Point of View

I could do nothing but to stare at Hiro for several seconds. Hindi ko akalain na ito ang rason kung bakit kailangan niyang umalis. Sino naman ako para pigilan siya? Kahit naiintindihan ko ang kanyang sitwasyon ay hindi ko maiwasan makaramdam ng kaunting kirot sa puso ko. But at least, he's also trying to face whatever he wants to do. Mas tumataas lang ang paghanga ko sa kanya. I didn't even care even if he's a member of an organization who does illegal things. I know we could do mistakes when we're teen. Since that's the age where we're still figuring out who we are and what we're going to do about life. Committing mistakes doesn't necessarily make us a bad person.

A security business, huh? I smile from that thought. There's always surprises about Hiro. Nang bigyan ko nang mahigpit na yakap ang binata ay niyakap din ako pabalik. Is this the reason why I always feel secure in his presence?

"You know, I have something to tell you as well." Paninimula ko habang nakatingin lang sa kanya. Sa tingin ko ay ito ang tamang oras para sabihin ito sa kanya.

"I do have a feelings for you." My breath was rushing through my throat. Ito talaga ang gusto kong sabihin sa kanya kanina pa. Pero ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na sabihin sa kanya.

"I like you too. No, I think this is already love." Sabi ko sa aking sarili at napailing. Napuno kami ng katahimikan. I grab the opportunity to break the silence.

"I love you, Hiro." My skin was prickling with heat, and when Hiro's eyes bore to mine, my soul was on fire. I clenched my hand on the fabric of his chest. Hiro let out a surprise sound. It seems like he wasn't expecting me to say it. He gave me a different meaning of love. I thought it was all about being able to be with the person you want by always pleasing them and pushing yourself to the extent that you are losing your sense of self. I only realized that this isn't healthy. It can ruin you, just like how I was ruined whenever I was with Creed.

"But I'm leaving, Laure. I—," there is a lump on his throat and I just made things complicated for him. Pero hindi ko gustong umalis siya na hindi niya man lang nalalaman ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya. I want him to know or I will regret it.

"Alam ko. Alam kong may mga bagay kang kailangan gawin. This whole thing, I understand that you don't want to put me in danger. I know you have to sort your life first, and I also have mine to deal with." Hiro bit his lower lips, but he didn't remove his eyes from me.

"And also, telling you my feelings doesn't mean I wanted to start a relationship with you." There, I said.

"I've been living my entire existence meeting expectations and doing what they like. Thus, earning the badge obedient Laure," hindi ko maiwasan magpakawala ng mahinang tawa sa dulo. Kahit si Hiro ay natawa na rin sa sinabi ko.

"Pero ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng lakas loob para tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa. I've been in a relationship with a man since I was fourteen, and I just got free from him until now. I must be stupid for entering a new relationship right away. I want to figure out things myself."

"You are not stupid, you silly," sabi naman niya at ginulo ng kaunti ang buhok ko. I pursed my lips when I relaxed beside him.

"The first time I met you in the restaurant, you stood out. I don't know why, maybe because you are the most good-looking person inside the restaurant. And then I saw you again. I asked you if you wanted to hook up with me— which you deliberately took down. Not until we've decided to use each other. I will act as your fiancée, and you will spend time with me in return." Sinubukan kong hindi umiyak habang sinasabi ito. If I just started crying, words would only melt inside my throat. But since Hiro has always been honest with me, I also wanted to be honest with him.