DEMA

Not Today

27th of April, 3001
I don't know why.
I just feel I'm better off.
Staying in the same room I was born in.
I look outside.
And see a whole world better off.
Without me in it trying to transform it.
I'm out of my mind.
I'm not seeing things right.
I waste all this time trying to run from you.
But I'm out of my mind.

There was a celebration in FPE that day.
We all sat around the table, and laughed and danced in the joy that we had gotten away with it.
It was around half nine in the evening when myself and Jenna arrived back at my apartment.
Neither of us had mentioned what had happened the night before, especially in front of the others, and I had assumed it was a one-off thing.
That's why I was so suprised when she kissed me.
"Damn you look bewildered" she said as we both sat down on my bed.
I took a few seconds to reply.
"Uhm... Yeah... Sorry... Is this just a casual thing or like?"
She smiled a big smile.
"I don't know Clancy, what do you want it to be?"
I looked at her eyes, and her face, and thought about how intelligent, and brave, and talented she was.
"Gee... You're beautiful" I told her, it's funny, I had so much to say, and now I can't think of a darn thing...Where was I?"
"You said I was beautiful."
"Oh yeah... I did... I guess I lo-"
She started luaghing, luaghing at me.
"What?" I asked, her infectious luaghter picking me up and making me smile.
"You're just toooo funny"
"Me? Funny?"
"Mhm, you're so awkward and it's really cute."
I looked away from her, my eyes darting back and forth.
"Awww you're blushing!" she mused, teasing me in a way in which she knew worked.
I kissed her then, and we fell into eachothers embrace.
For a moment it felt like all was right in the world, it was just myself and Jenna, making out on my bed.
Things were about to go further when there came a dreaded knock on the door.
My heart skipped a beat, and everything went quiet and still, both of us frozen in fear.
There came a second knock, and I approached my door, shaking like a leaf, and twisting the doorknob with my unsteady hand.
Keons was standing outside, his veil covering the expression on his face.
Just how angry was he?
I swollwed, holding my breath as my heart beat it's way out of my chest.
I looked him in the eyes, if I was going to lie about this, it was going to have to be good.
"Hello Clancy" he said.
I lowered my gaze, "Hello-"
"may I come in?"
"uh--yes-" I stuttered nervously, stepping back to allow him to walk in.
He made sure to shut the door behind him.
He spotted Jenna on the bed and stopped, "am i interrupting somthing?" he asked.
I shook my head, "No... No, not at all, Do you a cup of tea?"
I looked to Jenna, who was sitting on my bead, seething in what appeared to be anger.
"No I'm only stopping here for a brief time" said keons, stitting down at my kitchen table.
"There was a fire at the church" he continued, "the entire building has been reduced to nothing but skeletal remains."
"Oh... How unfortunate" I said, not looking at him.
"Would you know anything about the incident?"
"Of course not sir. "
My lie set BlurryFace off.
He went from complete silence to an extreamly loud scream in my ear, the pain jabbing trough my body.
"LIES! LIES!" he screamed.
He took over my whole head, I couldn't think anymore, not without him.
"are you sure" keons asked.
"No sir, I mean it was me sir, I set the church on fire."
BlurryFace was speaking on my behalf, he was holding the reins to my mind.
Jenna looked stunned, as if she couldn't belive what I was saying.
"You really Shouldn't have done that..." Keons said, in an almost soothing manner.
"I had high hopes for you, but it seems you don't want to behave, so Nico will have to have his way, come with me."
"Okay sir" I said, as Keons tied my hands in handcuffs.
Jenna pulled at his red cloak, "You can't take him away! He's innocent! He didn't do it, he's been here the whole time with me!"
"You should really put more thought into who you sleep with" keons told her, "this man is dangerous, he could have hurt you."
"PLEASE keons he's innocent! Don't hurt him!"
"Forget about me Jenna" BlurryFace said, trough me.
Jenna looked broken, shattered and desperate as she watched Keons pull me away and down the hall, shutting the door on her.

28th of April, 3001
Oh, don't you test me though, Just because I'm a poet.
Doesn't mean I'm not willing to take you down.
I'm sorry.
I'm, I'm out of my mind.
I'm, I'm not seeing things right.
I waste all this time trying to run from you.
But I'm, I'm out of my mind.

Keons must of somhow knocked me out, because the next thing I knew I had awoken in a cell, in Nico's tower.
I could hear Nico and Keons talking in the room beside me, and I listened, nervous of what my fate would be.
"He's a valuable asset Nico, you will regret killing him."
"I don't have time for your weak humanity keons, the boy must die."
"But sir, he has powers beyond our understanding or comprehension, he could be useful to us."
"Those powers are exactly why he is so dangerous Keons, he could bring an end to Dema, and he has made it clear where his loyalty lies, those Banditos have gotten into his head, he's their weapon against us."
"Nico, my good freind, the boy has made no attempts to escape in the last five months, he is completely complient, setting the church alight was a mere blip, he confessed, and I assure you, nothing like this will ever happen again."
"How can I trust that it won't?"
"I'll do more work with the boy, talk to him more, Nico, imagine him standing as the tenth bishop, standing beside us as a tenth bishop, he has the power to control the glorious gones, I know it's in him, I can feel it."
There was a long pause, Nico was contemplating my fate.
"Okay, I'll give him one more chance... But if he puts even one toe out of line, I'm killing him, because you're playing with fire here keons, and fire can burn."

Half an hour later, keons arrived at my cell.
I looked up at him, saying nothing, I wanted to appear dejected, defeated and complient, it would be the only thing that would keep me alive.
"Clancy" he said, towering over me, you've made a grave mistake, a... Lapse of judgment, that I'm sure you will not repeat again."
He opened the door to the cell, and unchained me from the wall.
I looked into those yellow eyes of his and said, "please tell me who I am Keons, I know you have the answer."
"You're just Clancy" he replied.
I looked away from him, I knew I wasn't going to get anywhere.
He walked me down the stairs and trough the door in silence.
Before I left he turned to me in a warning, "Oh, and Clancy, if I were you I would stay away from that girl, she's trouble."
"How so?"
"let's just say, I don't think it was your idea to burn down that church was it?"
"I don't know what you're talking about sir, I didn't burn down anything."
I thought I saw a smile appear for a fleeting moment on his face, but I couldn't be sure.
I walked away from him, and back to my freedom.

When Jenna opened her front door to see me standing there she was overcome with joy.
She leaped into my arms, and I almost fell over backwards, she was a little taller then me and and definitely the same weight.
"They let you out?"
"of course they did, nobody captures Clancy."
She hugged me close for quite a long time, which proved awkward because the rest of FPE were waiting in Jenna's apartment.
They all expressed how worried they were about me, and Jenna made us some food (which wasn't particularly appetizing considering Jenna isn't a very good cook.)
After a couple of hours the others finally cleared off and myself and Jenna were left to ourselves.
I was quiet, and Jenna noticed.
She sat down beside me, concern in her eyes.
"What happened yesterday Clancy? Why did you just... Admit to everything? You didn't tell him anything else did you? And your eyes, they were blood red..."
I didn't know what to tell her, I didn't want to tell her about BlurryFace, about who I truly was.
"it was Keons using some kind of lie-detection I think, nothing to worry about."
"And how did you get away?"
I told her about the decussion I overheard between Keons and Nico.
"Glorious gones?" she asked, concerned.
"I don't know what they are" I told her, "But I've definitely heared them mentioned before... I just don't rembember where."
"We can worry about it tommorow... Right now I'm just glad to have you back."
"I'm glad to be back too-- I was afraid that I'd lose you."
Jenna kissed me.
"You're not getting rid of me that easily" she smiled.
"So... Are we like... Going out orrrr?"
"I don't know Clancy... They do say you should never meet your heros... But there aren't any rules about dating them."
"I'd like if we could be together."
She laughed at me, "Really?"
"Yes, of course, I mean, only if you wanted to."
"Of course I would, I love you."
I kissed Jenna to avoid answering.
Love was fragile, and it scared me.

Heard you say.
Not today.
Tore the curtains down.
Windows open, now make a sound.
Heard your voice.
There's no choice.
Tore the curtains down.
Windows open, now make some noise.
You are out of my mind.
You aren't seeing my side.
You waste all of this time trying to get to me.
But you are out of my mind.