L'AMOUR DE MA VIE - Billie Eilish

Chapter 17

Em's POV

Billie had spent the last 2 days with me. Apart from me working my Wednesday shift  at the book shop and her occasionally going home to get some of her essential stuff, we hadn't left the comfort of my apartment. We had a lot to catch up on, having been apart for almost 2 years.

I felt an overwhelming feeling of bliss. I'd been dreaming of this moment for as long as I could remember. Despite everything that happened between Billie and I, it felt right to be with her again.

The fact that I'd finally come clean to Billie amplified my happiness. I felt relieved, the weight on my shoulders finally lifted. The truth had set me free and gave me the opportunity to have the blue eyed girl in my arms again.

Throughout the last 2 days, we'd mostly lounged around, making sure to remain close to each other at all times. It was like no time had passed. We joked, laughed, cuddled, kissed and fooled around like nothing had happened.

It felt good to finally be happy again. I was desperately hoping that my happiness would last. I didn't dwell too much on the matter, though. Billie was the only thing that seemed to calm me down in the past, and it took me no time to realize that she still held the same ability of making me forget about my worries.

We were currently lying in my bed, Billie's dark hair spread across one of my pillows. My head was placed on her chest, her hand caressing my hair softly. We were waiting for Ky and Fred to arrive. The song I'd sold was officially coming out at midnight, so I'd decided to have Ky come and hang out so we could listen to the song together. It was supposed to only be the 2 of us, but considering everything that happened with Billie, I'd invited her to stay for another night. It's not like I had a choice anyways. Billie had already claimed that she was going to stay the night and honestly, it didn't bother me in the slightest.

Ky's date with Fred had gone smoothly. Despite only going out once, the immediate connexion between the two had blossomed into a potential relationship. They weren't official, but they agreed to date each other exclusively for the time being. They were gonna take things slow, just like Billie and I. All things considered, I'd asked Fred to join us as well. He was currently dating Ky and was good friends with Billie, so it felt natural for me to invite him alongside my best friend. I wanted to get to know him and this was the perfect opportunity.

"What are you thinking about?" Billie whispered in my ear, making me shiver.

"Not much. I feel happy right now, but I'm also so fucking nervous about the song coming out. I just hope people like it and understand what I'm trying to say through the song," I replied, anxiously playing with one of Billie's many necklaces.

"I get it. I felt the same way too when people were first hearing my material. It's nerve racking to know that we're giving people a view into our deepest and truest feelings. I've seen some of your songs, Em, and there's no doubt in my mind that this one is gonna be as beautiful as all the other ones I've had the pleasure of reading," she said softly.

I rolled off of Billie and stared at the ceiling. She understood what I was feeling better than anyone. It had probably been even more stressful for her, considering the fact that she was the one singing about her feelings. In my case, the people listening to my lyrics would associate them to Ariana Grande, unless they looked at the song credits. I had the ability to remain mostly anonymous. I hadn't used my real name for the composer credit, opting to use my middle name instead. That thought alone seemed to ease some of my nerves.

Billie suddenly straddled me, the view of her face interrupting the staring contest I was having with the ceiling. She smirked devilishly at me.

"Can I do something to make you relax?" She hinted seductively. I laughed softly and nodded.