L'AMOUR DE MA VIE - Billie Eilish

Chapter 32

Em's POV

"Are we bad people?"

Billie shot me a confused look, her arm lazily wrapped across my waist.

"What do you mean?" She asked.

I sighed softly, cuddling further into Billie. I was tired from our previous night. The afternoon was creeping up quickly, but Billie and I refused to get out of bed. I enjoyed the feeling of our naked bodies intertwined in between my silk sheets. I'd missed this.

I'd texted Ky that I felt better. I'd rushed off pretty quickly the night before, telling her that I was feeling sick from the joint I'd smoked with Fred. It was obviously a lie, but my senses had been compromised by what occurred between Billie and I in the bathroom. My thoughts were focused on her and only her at that moment. I felt bad for ditching Kyra on her birthday, but I knew that in the end, she'd probably be really happy for me.

"I mean," I swallowed painfully. "We ditched our friends to have sex. Plus, you just broke up with Ruby. Does that make us bad people?" I clarified.

"No," the singer chuckled before giving me a peck on the cheek. "Everyone will understand. I mean, all of our friends probably knew that we still had feelings for each other. Plus, we didn't just have sex, it was more than that."

I nodded, knowing she was right. Billie was close with Fred and Finn, which meant that they were probably aware of Billie's persistent feelings for me. I was close with Ky and Sam, and they'd definitely drilled me in the past about my love for Billie. As for Claudia, we weren't as close, but she'd called out Billie and I at the beach all those weeks ago. She was probably the smartest one out of all our friends, if I'm being honest. She saw right through us from the beginning.

"As for Ruby..." Billie trailed off. "I broke up with her before this happened. I had some very small feelings for her, but in the end, I knew I was only trying to distract myself. Honestly, if anyone is a bad person, it's me. You did nothing wrong."

I shifted my body so I could face her. I smiled fondly at the beautiful girl lying naked in my bed. I was truly lucky.

"I don't think you're a bad person, Bil. We both could've done things differently, but I think what matters most right now is that we're finally together," I reassured her.

Billie leaned down to kiss me sweetly, her hand pinching the skin of my ass. I gasped at the feeling, which made the singer slip her tongue into my mouth. I grabbed both of her cheeks as a way to deepen the kiss. I pulled back after a few minutes, seeing a familiar look on the singer's face. I glared playfully at Billie.

"No," I stated. "I'm still sore from the 6 orgasms you gave me last night."

"Isn't 7 a lucky number, though?" Billie smirked as she trailed her hand down to the inside of my thigh. I slapped her hand away, which made the girl pout.

"You're mean," she whined. I rolled my eyes at her child-like manners.

"So, what are we going to do?" I changed the subject smoothly.

"What do you mean?" Billie asked as she twirled a strand of my hair between her fingers.

"Well, first of all, what is this?" I gestured between the two of us.

"Well," Billie started. "I say we're together. Officially."

"Are you sure that's the best idea?" I asked worriedly.

"I think so. You know I'm working on my issues. I've been betrayed in the past, but I'm working really hard on it with my therapist. It's clear that our previous relationship was very confusing for me. I need to be with someone who wants to be with me exclusively, with no ambiguities." She explained as she stroked my cheek.