Accidental Ruination

34: His Mom.

Chapter 34: His Mom.

Stacey.

     I couldn't look him in the eye, the guilt and shame in me couldn't let me. who would have thought that I would one day meet with his mother? The same woman I had hurt with my actions.

Mrs Aman smiled at me, " you should eat more, " she said, we were at the dinning, chatting over lunch.

"Your sister was the strongest woman I had ever met, " she added, " she was able to live through that difficulty even after everything, "

Mrs Aman had met Tomi before her death, they knew each other as at the time, she worked for her.

"She was, " I whispered, "but it's a pity she died, I had told her you know, yet she refused to listen to me, in the end she  couldn't make it, "

"I am sorry,"

Shaking my head I responded, "it was never your fault, your daughter went through the same, I am happy she is still alive, at least one of them is strong enough to make it this far, my only regret is that we never caught him or them, the men who hurt them, "

"We couldn't find him, " she said.

"I know, Tomi was unwilling to, especially when she found out about Ednard, she was afraid he would hurt him, " tears rolled down my cheek, "she feared for mine and her baby's life, it's not fair, not to her, not to your daughter or us, "

Mrs Aman held my hand in hers, "we will find him or them, whoever he is, whoever they are, we will make them pay, "

"Thanks you, " I stopped eating since earlier, having lost my appetite, "thank you for the food ma'am, " I put down the fork, the table went quiet as my sniffles filled the room.

"Um... C-can I use the bathroom please? "I asked.

"Ah yes, the bathroom, you can use Dyleine's, it's been out of use for so long, " turning to Dyletto, Mrs Aman said, "help her to D's room please? "

Dyletto nodded, then he turned to me, "come with me, "

I stood from the seat, an assuring smile on my face for Ed and an apologetic one for Mrs Aman, as we walked through the steps to Dyleine's room, I had my eyes down, my ears blocked as I thought about the things I had done and where I had gone wrong.

All these while I didn't want to believe that I was wrong, I knew it, I felt it, I felt pain due to it yet deep down I had justified myself.

However, this, seeing his Mom, the woman who was and is still hurting because of me, it hurts more and I hated myself more.

I could see the pain and unhappiness in her eyes.

Releasing a sigh, I walked after him, it didn't take a while before I walked into a wall, no, a back, Dyletto's back, I moved away, " I am sorry, I wasn't looking at -"

"We are here, " he cut me off, without looking at me.

"Thanks, " I walked passed him into the room, I hesitated before opening the door,   "can i ask you something?" I asked, looking at his hooded eyes.

He said nothing.

"W-why did you ask me to be your girlfriend after everything I had d-done to you? " I asked anyway.

He looked at me, " It was a deal, the reason behind the deal is none of your business, " then he turned to leave but I held his hand.

"I hate myself too, " I whispered, " I detest myself for what I did but please, please find a place in your heart to forgive me, I don't need any kind of mercy, b-but... I, "

"I have told you, " he stated, turned to me and peeled my hands off him, " I don't have that in me, you have to pay for what you have done, just like I do now, " with that said, he left.

I stood there watching his disappearing figure, I had no strength to cry, I was too tired to, by the time I returned to the dinning table, Ed had fallen asleep while Mrs Aman chatted with her son.

I sat with them, silent and unable to focus on what they were saying, I wanted to close my eyes and never open them, maybe then maybe I would be free from all my worries and stress.

Some one shook me which broke me out of my stream of thoughts. " Stacey dear,you seem tired," Mrs Aman said, her face coated in worry.

I smiled, " ah, It must be due to work, I had a lot to do today, but I will be alright, thank you for your concern,"

Mrs Aman nodded," you must be tired then, why don't you stay over for the night! It will be more exhausting to return home at this time of the night," she suggested.

I shook my head,"thank you for the offer but... I would love to go home,"

"Oh, if that's what you want them you can do that ,"

I nodded,"thank you for dinner," then I stood up, picked up my bag and went to the living room to pick up sleeping Edna,I had to wake her up since I couldn't carry her due to her weight.

Mrs Aman help me to the door then she had Dyletto escort me to my car, once he escorted me to my car and helped us settle in, I said my goodbye, turned on the ignition and left for home.

The drive home had been quiet, Edna had fallen asleep the moment she got in the car while I drove, I was in no position to speak either.

When we arrived at home, I helped Edna settle in bed, then I went to the private room I had moved some of my family's old stuffs in.

I took a picture frame of my parents and Tomi and held it to my chest as I sobbed.

" You must be disappointed in what I have  become, I tried to prevent myself from becoming a whore, from becoming a version of myself I hated but now... I don't know what to think anymore, I feel like I have become worse than a whore, I hate myself,"

~P-Lia~.