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TW: mentions of suicide and SA
Demi Contanova
Everyone was enjoying themselves at the bonfire on the resort beach but I couldn't even think straight, everyone was gossiping about Summer and Kai's fixed relationship and how they seemed even closer than ever
I didn't care about the gossip anymore, I didn't care about any of it.
I only feel Numb.
These days that seems to be the most common feeling in my life, I can't place where it directly all went wrong but now that I think about it I set myself up for this. Following a crowd I knew could never benefit me in any way
I was either always the blame or the scapegoat, in both my household and at school. Being the daughter of a rich Banking CEO did not make life as easy as everyone around me assumed. you wouldn't believe the amount of people who befriended me because they believed I could provide them with a black card of some sort.
My dad was never around, my mom was dead and I was a pathetic only child who wanted to belong. I wanted and tried to fit in so badly even if I was nothing but a mere servant or pawn.
Unfortunately being a pawn made me a victim of Rick's lies and deceit. what he has on me is something I know I'll regret for the rest of my life.
Rick is the devil's incarnate. It sounds dramatic but that's exactly what he is a child who has a family who's having a bad fall from grace, from the heavens and now onto earth. Rick was the son of a politician and was supposed to inherit everything now it's all over because of many failed brand deals and investments.
nobody else knows this but Rick's entire family was going bankrupt, I could remember vividly hearing my dad arguing with the higher-ups about trying to save such a former influential politician from crashing out in every way.
Unfortunately, nothing could be done and now a slow and painful burn is all Rick can deal with during his last year at such a prestigious school. Rick decided he wasn't gonna be the only one to crash and burn and was successfully gonna take us all with him although the rest of the group couldn't see through him.
only Izzy and I knew his true colors although the difference between us both is that Izzy is scared and I'm just tired.
I am so tired.
FLASHBACK
I moan from the feeling of Rick exploring my neck and the hold he had on my waist. The loud bass-boosted speaker music drowned out the sound of our pleasure.
he held me like he wanted someone but not in the way that was loving or pure desire, it was more like he wanted something to claim, although I didn't mind too much.
I had been waiting forever for this moment. someone as popular as Rick and me being together was more than an exhilarating idea that could now potentially become reality.
