wintumn - we will get through this, i promise.

13

!!MENTIONS OF MISCARRIAGE!!

the morning was like a blur for autumn. most people when they are hungover are violently unwell. but not autumn. she felt fine, just really really sleepy.

winter was totally awake, if fact he found rather boring how quiet autumn was being.

but to winters disappointment, today was going to be a day off. not only for autumn to recover, but to give them time to think about the miscarriage.

"how are you feeling, my love." winter asked.

"fine, i guess. im just exhausted. yesterday felt like a bad dream that i desperately want to forget" autumn frowned.

when winter was about to answer, there was a knocking at the door.

"who is that, my love?" winter asked.

"i dont know i will head down and check." autumn smiled.

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autumn slowly headed down the stairs. she was in her blue silk pyjamas (winters favourite) and her hair was somehow still perfect.

she turned the key, and slowly opened the door. in the door was a tall man,in a blue sweater and jeans. it was reece. he was holding a bouqet of black tulips. one of autumns favourites.

auumn could not conceal her emotion anymore. seeing her big brother brought it all back out. tears began to flow and sobs flowed down.

she ran into reeces arms, wrapping her arms tightly around his waist. autumn hated hugs, but loosing her baby brought out autumns soft side. the side of her that needed a hug once in a while.

"its okay aut. let it all out." reece spoke softly.

reece didnt know what to do. he always took care of marjorie if she was crying. and he knew how to deal with that. but autumn, she never cried. no matter what, so he had never ever had to help her.

in that moment he was dying to talk to marjorie. she would have known what to do and how to comfort anyone. reece was awkward in that way. whenever someone came for a hug, he would just stand there unaware of what to do.

the knight siblings stood there motionless for around 5 minutes. 5 long minutes, that felt like hours. that moment everything was forgotten. the arguments, the death, the distress and destruction. they held each other tight, comforting more than their father ever did, or ever would.

autumn pulled off of reece. her eyes were red and puffy. to be totally honest. reeces eyes too were red from crying. reece didnt like crying, he only would do it on his own. but this moment was too sad not to express any emotion.

"are you okay now, aut?" reece smiled.

"i think. but please stay here today. or if not, can i go to your place." autumn asked wiping her eyes.

"you can come back to my house aut. plus, marjorie will be there and shes more help than i could ever be."

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with reece saying that, autumn waved good bye to winter and sat in reeces car. his house was 30 minutes away from autumns, but he was looking to move closer to her. then, reece would be able to protect autumn from anything. if she was sad, he could help. is roger came back, he could help. anything bad, reece and marjorie would help autumn pull through.

the drive was peaceful. it was still early (ish) so there was barely any traffic. reece loved driving. whenever he or marjorie had a bad day at the nursery, he would drive them. anywhere and everywhere he would drive them until it all got better. marjorie and reece would talk the whole time. it was there favourite activity together. and it always end in a moonlit picnic, gazing into the night sky.

and that was what reece wanted to make autumn feel like. he wanted her to feel safe in his company. and reeces way of doing that was by a long long drive. it was how he gained marjories trust, so he knew it worked. marjorie would tell him anything in the drives. but unfortunately for him, autumn hated letting her feelings out. her father told her that crying was a weakness, and talking about  her worries was even worse.

"please talk to me autumn. i want to do anything to help you recover from this, physically and mentally." reece said.

"i will try and talk when we are at your place and marjorie is there too. just remember what dad used to say though, it is weak to show any form of sadness, worry or fear. and he is right." autumn replied, still slightly sobbing.

"no autumn. dad has never been right about a thing in his life. you need to stop bullying your self into thinking dad was ever right. aut you need to start talking about your emotions. what you have just been through is a unimaginable amount of pain. a type of pain i will hopefully never have to go through with marjorie. but, if i did happen i would talk about it. just like you should do." reece stated.

"reece you really dont understand. the only person who does is not here right now. i promise i will talk about it later however you really dont realise how much mental pain i have gone through. everytime i see a baby, something inside of me falls apart. i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. i wouldnt even wish this type of pain on father." 

that 'one person' wasnt far away though, she was in fact very near them. that 'one person' was someone autumn saw everyday. whenever autumn is distressed she would help her. if she didnt exist, autumn wouldnt have a job. that 'one person' was marjorie...

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im so so sorry about not updating in what feels like years but life has been so hectic. im going to write the next chapter now so you should be updated either later today or tommorow. 

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