forbidden love

tim bradford

tw: domestic violence, self harm, and suicidal tendencies

i will be writing jackson's death into here, i probably won't go into full detail with lopez going over to Guatemala
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after lucy was discharged from the hospital, we drove back to my house we get there. i open the door for her and i show her to my room. i told her that she will be staying in my room and she looked at me not wanting to, but i told her it would be okay. i asked her about the letter she left for me, and what she wrote was true. i was hoping it was, i am crazy about her and would do anything for her. we talked for a little bit and the doorbell rang while i was looking into her eyes, they were beautiful just like the rest of her. i didn't want to see who was there but it just kept ringing. it was nyla and angela they brought food and they wanted to make sure lucy was okay.

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after they left it was just lucy and i again. "where you going to try to kill yourself that night?" i asked, she didn't say anything "lucy.." i said, "yes." she said, "i had it all planned out." she added, tears started running down her face and some started to form into my eyes. "come here" i said, we were sitting on my bed i held her close, we were sitting like that for hours. she fell asleep in my arms. i ended up falling asleep too.

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i woke up, lucy wasn't sleeping anymore she was at the end of the bed doing something on her phone, "what are you doing" i asked, "nothing" she said. i looked at her, "okay fine i'm looking at cody's arrest records." she said "you shouldn't be doing that, it's not healthy" i said. "i know but i have to know how long he will be gone for." she said, "he will be gone for a while." i said, "yeah i hope so." she said "i'm going to start on breakfast" i said "want anything specific?" i added "um no i don't care" she said

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after breakfast lucy asked if we could go to her apartment, to clean it up. we head over there, and when we walk in it was a mess, the door was broken and the room was trashed from cody. "where do you want to start?" i asked, "i'll just start in the living room" she said while grabbing a trash bag from underneath the sink. "okay, want me to help?" i asked, "um i think i got the living room" she said, i walked over to the bedroom and started picking up. we have been here for a while now. "do you think you want to move?" i asked her, "yeah but i don't think i'll get my deposit back" she said "the doors are destroyed" she added "i bet john would fix them" i said. "yeah but i don't want to bother him." she said "don't be silly, you won't." i said. "i mean i guess, i'll call him" she said, she walked away and called him. "he will be here soon" she said and sat down on the couch next to me. we didn't say anything, "i hope our relationship isn't ruined" she said "what?" i said, confused. "the letter i wrote" she said hesitantly "no it's not, i promise." i said, "i feel like things are awkward between us." she replied, i looked at her grabbing her hand "no it's not" she smiled. john walked in, she took her hand back fast and i stood up not sure if he saw that. "hey guys!" he said, "hey" lucy replied. john walked over to the door, "yeah i'll have to replace these, there's no saving them." he said.

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so sorry guys it took me forever to get this out i dropped my phone into a pool and then i forgot my password to this account, so my week has been pretty good 😭😭