The Unloved Wife

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 24

Life goes on.

Time doesn't stop for anyone but it certainly takes something from you that defines you. From me, it took my calmness and my ability to trust others.

The past few years have changed me completely into a different person. I have lost my calmness. I developed trust and anger management issues. I never used to get angry easily but now it's different and it's certainly bothers me sometime.

One more influential thing happened to me that I started distancing myself from people. I am not what I used to be around people. I am still friends with my old friends but I try not to indulge myself with new people. I just can't be nice to new people like I used to be in old times. I started living in my safe circle, not able to trust the people.

I started enjoying my company more than anything. I found peace in the darkness of the room. You can never go wrong with yourself. Right?

I lost myself in the professional duties and the pieces of my broken trust that never enabled me to trust someone again. People just play with you like you are a toy and don't have emotions.

Once I was hurt badly and that ach in my heart stayed with me, forever. It made me more silent and alone. I drifted myself away from the world and it's happiness.

"I think you should get married now" Papa talked to me when I visited them on weekend. For my work, I used to live in the nearby city.

I nodded my head silently.

"You like someone?" He asked me.

I shook my head.

Does it matter if I liked anyone? Does my feelings mattered at all? I don't think so.

"Then I think you won't have any problem with the girl we chose for you" He said further.

"I won't" I said.

"We both like a girl named, Mehrbano for you. She is a wonderful girl, Talha's eldest daughter" He kept on telling me about her.

"Okay" I nodded.

The next day, I went to Uncle Talha's place with my parents where I saw her after years. She looked different. I saw her previously when I was in my graduation. Long time ago.

She seemed to be a simple and elegant young woman. I could sense her nervousness. She was fidgeting with her dupatta. I didn't stare at her. I just observed her in one look.

Our father were friends. There was no point of any difference. After a short period, I got married to her and my life changed completely.

Before getting married, I thought it wouldn't be a much change to my life but I was wrong. So wrong.

Marriage completely changed my life.

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My room seemed so different to me on my wedding night. It felt as I was in someone else's room. There was my bride sitting on my bed, waiting for me.

She quickly averted her eyes from me. I caressed the nape of my neck. I was getting uncomfortable in her presence. I didn't know her. We never talked. How am I supposed to share my everything with her?

It was awkward and I was cursing myself for putting myself into this mess.

I sat next to her on the bed and asked her about my expectations from this marriage. What else I could say to a woman I was meeting for the first time. I wasn't the same calm man I was once. It was difficult for me to initiate a conversation with her and said whatever came into my mind.