The Unloved Wife

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 38

M e h r b a n o

A new day, a new beginning.

Today's sunrise was very special to me. I kept standing at the hostel's top floor with my eyes fixed in the direction of the sun. It was heartwarming to stand there in hope that today would be different from the past.

I had breakfast with my roommate in the dining area where I met some of her friends. They met nicely and welcomed me warmly. It was my first day here and I had already met with kindness.

It filled my heart with warmth.

I changed into a formal suit I loved. It's color is red. The color of love and the most beautiful flower. I did minimal makeup which gave an instant glow to my dull face.

I loved doing makeup and from now on I would do it everyday. A little smile lingered on my lips as I saw my reflection in the mirror.

I walked from the hostel building to the main road. It just took me three minutes, from there I rode on the bus which took me to the main markaz of a renowned sector. It wasn't far from my hostel.

For the first time in my life, I traveled alone.

When mama was alive, I used to travel with her in the local buses but she was always there to protect me. After getting married, I never travelled alone without Ehan. It was never needed anyway. He would take me shopping and outings on his own without me asking for anything.

"Jab main hoon to koi zaroorat nahi hy akele jane ki. Shehar ke halaat ache nahi hain" His protective voice echoed around me.

(When I am there for you then there is no need to go alone. City isn't safe for woman)

Now, I didn't have any of them to protect me.

It's only myself now.

I glanced at the tall building in front of me. It was a fancy building and had many floors. The board says Sama's boutique and I realized it's one of the upscale retail stores in the city.

Right there, looking myself into the mirror I realized what I was wearing.

"Here! This is perfect" Ehan showed me a dress.

"You like it?" I asked him.

I didn't like the dress but if he liked it I am gonna buy this. Whatever please him I am gonna do that.

"Yes" He nodded, placing the dress at my front. We were standing in front of the mirror in a clothing store.

"You will look beautiful in it!" He leaned down at my ear and whispered.

I turned my face to him and passed a genuine smile. I loved every time he would compliment me because it was always rare.

He held my hand for a moment but didn't say anything. His eyes had something but his lips were silent as always.

I loved this dress after that. I have forgotten about him buying it for me but now looking into the mirror saddens me.

Will I ever be able to remove him from my head?

Because every other thing reminds me of the time I had spent with him. His words, his not so silent eyes stay with me. I want to forget him completely but I am not able to.