Sharing My Heart

14th July 2024

Hi guys. I hope you're doing well.

As expected, I was asked to do work on this week as well. And I declined.

You see, at my work place, I have asked to do overwork, even on those days when there's absolute no work. Still my work hours have remained constant, at a very minimum wage as well.

Last Friday, I couldn't attend my tuition classes due to poor health.

This month, July, has extra workload coz there's both GST filing and Income Tax filing. And we have few heavyweight clients whose income is at least 7 figures. And these mfs haven't reached out yet. And they'll complain about their 6 figure tax amount 🤐😒

On the other hand, Itr. portal doesn't showing full picture of a person's financial status till the very last minute. You see, before filing the itr, we need to tally/ compare info from three sources,

1. From the client,
2. From 26AS report, and
3. From AIS portal.

If we skip this step and file itr, it would be considered as "filing with incomplete info" and thus client might get a notice IT department. No one wants that.

Govt. can, if they want, give general public a relief by extending the due date from 31 July to 31 August. But they won't and they never will.

May be I'm being very petty for not going to work on Sunday and complaining about my earnings. When I heard that someone who has same work hours as me, makes two times more than me!

I know I shouldn't jump my gun without talking to the actual employee rather than the employer. Still...

Here's an example. An employer, I have talked to, gives his employee Rs. 6000. Even if, giving it benefit of the doubt, the employer is actually giving Rs. 3000, that's still higher than what I get.

Last Sunday I went to work, hoping "this Sunday would be last". But no. And I fear that there's more to come. Means more work, but not pay.

Baba is extremely pissed since I came back from my recent job interview. Baba was furious after knowing that the new job will give me Rs 10000 salary, that's much higher than my current pay. He's constantly pushing me to leave the current job. Last night he said, "Don't worry about my and your mom's ITR filing. He (my employer) is obligated to do so. He's absolutely not paying you right, let alone draining your all energy out. Your talent is getting wasted here. And I can't stand that. Look, if you don't get the new one, that's fine. But I, positively, don't want you work there anymore.

You know dear Reader, I always thought, why I'm getting paid soo less? Is it because I'm not from commerce background & can't do Balance Sheet from plain thin air?Is it because I'm not generating wealth at my work? Do really I suck at my job so bad that I can't get Rs. 3000 wage? Am I so unworthy?

I have decided I'll work this July. And tell my employer that I won't be working anymore due poor health.

I know I'm a broken record, but yes, I am really exhausted right now. I can't sleep. I can't sit for long. I can't read even when I've a test tomorrow & I wanna do my best. Everyone does the same as me, but they thrive & I can't. Sometimes I feel my existence is nothing more than a joke.

And a gentle reminder, this isn't for garnering sympathy, but wanted to be heard.

Have a good day/night whenever you are reading this.

Take care.

Bye