Sharing My Heart

A short Update 'bout Life

Originally posted on 21/04/2023

Hi guys. How you doing?

I'm doing okay-ish. Honestly, I'm not motivated these days to write anything.

There are billions to trillions to zillions of reasons why I put this on hold. But here me out. My dear lovely laptop gets too hot to type on it. And the heatwave... it burns in the day.

So I decided to write this in the night. Lo and behold, the f*cking darn INTERNET doesn't work. বাল একটা(fuck it).

On top of it, I don't have a dedicated place for writing, and I'm a nit-picky perfectionist. And I need a workplace to work in a good, comfortable posture. And there won't be any compromises. Cause, I've done that and not doing it again.

Its evening right now. I managed to gather some motivation to give you guys some update. 

I probably published the last chapter 2 weeks ago. And I was thinking of making weekly post here. But I was fighting with the above reasons lately.

Since the last chapter, another week went by, and we had Biryani. Again. But I enjoyed this time. So that's a plus.

A little thing about me. I'm from India, West Bengal to be specific. And Summer is deadly here. Temperature's going 38 degrees(min) to 45 degrees(max). Sometimes weather gets cool. So its bearable. 

But the first floor(British Eng.) becomes an oven in the daytime. Heat rash, my life-long "friends", came to visit ever since the peak temperature. And they said they ain't going anytime soon. 

I read an article which talked about "El Niño Effect", its warm phase, and how it might cause less rain in India. On top that, C0r0na জানোয়ার(meaning: animal, used as slang) is back. Most cases are coming from Delhi. But it can spread. And I'm worried.

If you're a BTS or ASTRO fan, the next paragraph is for you. If you're a hater, thank you & leave.

And if you don't have any idea what I'm talking or genuinely curious about, stick around.

This week... on 18th April 2023, Jhope(BTS) got enlisted for the mandatory military service. 

And yesterday, Moonbin(ASTRO) passed away. My deepest condolences to his family, friends, loved ones and AROHA. May his soul rest in peace.

I'm an ARMY(BTS fan). I came to know about the bad news from armys on stan Twitter. I'm very sensitive about su!c!de. So, even someone, stranger to me, passes away like this, I feel heartbroken. As if only we could've saved them, made them feel they count on us...

And Jhope's enlistment ceremony, many armys including me, expected to hear jin's voice, and... got disappointed. I know you can't make any public appearance right now. But voice? Hearing the voice isn't an appearance, in my dictionary. ব'এ আ'কার লোকজন!

And little message to Jinnie, I know you'll never read this. You say that BTS & ARMY's relationship has no happy ending because it never ends. I believe that any relationship can have ups & downs like the above. So please don't get upset or mad at us. But we understand why you didn't appear in the video. It's okay. We are really grateful that you took the time to make videos for us while you're away. Hopefully we get to see your monthly video in May. Take care. Don't beat yourself up when things don't go the way you want. If you feel sad or wanna cry, find a safe spot and let out your emotions out. Its important. This isn't weakness. This is human behaviour. And I believe, only a human can save another human. All of us ARMYs are proud of you and want you to come back safe and soon. And one more thing, in "the SEOM" game always give us whale, otherwise you'll not be our bias💜