After Gon and Killua part ways following the events where Alluka (or Nanika) heals Gon, they each go on different paths. Gon returns to his aunt Mito, as losing his Nen prevents him from embarking on further dangerous adventures. Despite this, his f...
The moment Gon saw Killua shatter the door and leave the room was simply painful, as he realized what he had done. He hadn't thought about the consequences of his actions, and sometimes he didn't even understand why he got angry in the first place.
"Gon?" Knuckle asked him worriedly.
Gon didn't look at him as he began to cry.
Gon: "I-I did it again, but I didn't mean it, really." Gon then looked back at them and continued to cry over the stupid thing he had done. He started to speak again.
"I'm such an idiot, I didn't mean it. I wasn't angry at Killua, never. I mean, it looked like I was, but I was just worried about him. I swear, but I expressed it the wrong way. I don't know why."
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Leorio: "Gon, you should have told Killua at the beginning. You sounded like you were super angry at him because he hasn't contacted you."
Gon knew this himself, but he said, "I know, I just wanted to say that I was worried about him and why he didn't answer, and how I felt. But then other things came out of my mouth that even changed my tone, but that's not how I meant it."
Gon couldn't even forgive himself. Even saying that he didn't think it was okay or how he felt over the past few months would be bad. Gon barely knew how Killua felt or only a small part of it. When Gon started to talk, he blurted out every emotion, sometimes without even realizing it. And from that moment on, he could see what happens when Killua gets really angry. At the end, he managed to control himself a little and walked away. But the thought of what happened in the palace when Gon was so angry and Killua had almost nothing to say was terrible for Gon. Killua always thought before he acted, but everyone has their limits.
It was as if Gon had seen a new level of Killua's anger. At first, you could only see it on his face, but later from his aura, then from his mouth, and his control. He couldn't even control his abilities, he was so angry. Gon could now somewhat understand what would happen in the palace if Gon criticized Killua even more and kept attacking him. It's always like this when you can't gauge someone and the person barely expresses themselves. If you keep pushing because you get no reaction, there's a limit where they can't take it anymore, and the other person won't appreciate it until that moment.
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And even more so, the fact that Killua had to hold everything back was damaging his life and his mental health. That was the breaking point, Gon thought. He urgently needed to fix this, so he slowly left the room and said, "I need to talk to Killua." He said this with full responsibility. Some asked if they should come along, but Gon declined and went off to find Killua. He first searched the floors, but he was sure that Killua was outside, so Gon went outside. But outside there was a huge crowd standing there, and they were all going inside. Then a loudspeaker announced: "The Hunter Association meeting is now beginning. Every Hunter should please gather in the hall IMMEDIATELY!! Thank you." The loudspeaker was now off, and all the hunters headed to the hall, but Gon still had to find Killua. Gon quickly ran outside while his friends were calling his name because he had to go to the hall, but Gon didn't care; he was looking for Killua. He searched for 30 minutes outside for a boy with white hair and blue eyes but found nothing. He even asked passersby if they had seen him, but no. Gon then went back inside to the Hunter Association hall. As he entered, you could hear the door that Gon opened, and all eyes were on him. There were so many hunters, no wonder since the hall was also huge. Pariston was standing at the front with a smile as always. Gon walked a bit further in and just couldn't see Killua. Where was he, he thought.
Pariston: "What a surprise, Gon, isn't it? The son of Ging. My goodness, you two have a lot in common, even when it comes to punctuality. You're both always late, hahaha, just a little joke. Gon, you're late, but since I'm so nice, you can take a seat."
Pariston's friendly demeanor seemed strange but kind at the same time. However, Gon didn't want to sit down; he wanted to see Killua.
"I can't, I have to find someone. Have you by any chance seen a boy about my height with white hair and blue eyes?" Gon asked. Everyone started talking and wondering if they had seen him.
Pariston: "Gon, if you don't sit down now and just leave, you will miss something, and then you can't participate in the extremely important Hunter matters. But that's your choice."
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Gon looked around the hall one last time and now had no choice.
Gon: "I'm leaving," he said and left the hall to search for Killua in the building. Gon didn't care at all at that moment. Friends stick together, and it was time for Gon to take care of his best friend just like Killua always did. So Gon searched almost every room in the building, and in the last room, he saw him sitting alone.
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His [Killua's] glow was gone due to all the electricity, and he had now calmed down a bit. Gon approached him and stood in front of him, but Gon's nose smelled blood, a lot of blood, coming from Killua's body. He saw that Killua's t-shirt had a bloodstain, and it was almost completely covered in blood. In addition, Killua was constantly scratching the skin on his hands. Gon reacted immediately, grabbed Killua's hands, and looked at him in alarm.
