Twenty-Two (H.S)

Chapter 48.

...H's POV...

It felt like a dream, one that I never wanted to wake up from. I've been attracted to Em ever since I've known her. That first day night when jax and Nate bought her back to the compound felt like forever ago and just yesterday at the same time. I was prepared to just offer her a place to feel safe like I had with many of the people here but I was drawn to her and I wasn't really sure why, I just was.

I couldnt get her out of my head, even when she went home she never left my thoughts and I was beginning to think I had gone crazy. It wasn't until I had tried to be with a girl for the first time after I met Em and that's when I knew I was for sure crazy, crazy about Em.

The boys teased me about it for days but I tried to hide it, I hated myself for feeling the way I did, I shouldn't get close to people but there was no denying it. I remember the first time we kissed, as soon as her velvety smooth lips pressed against mine I was a goner. There's no way I was ever going to be able to kiss anyone else again and now as I kissed her with so much passion and love I knew she was it.

"I'll be gentle" I spoke softly to her, reassuring her that she was okay. I was supporting my weight on my elbow as I hovered over her, just enough that our bodies were still touching but not enough that I was hurting her with my full weight. I attached our lips again but this time I gently push my tongue inside her own mouth where she doesn't hesitate to let me in at all.

Before I even knew what was happening she'd flipped me over in one swift movement so I now lay on my back on the bed and she was straddling me, sweet smirk playing on her lips. I guess she wanted to be in control which usually I would hate, I never fucked girls like this, I preferred it when I didn't have to be so close and intimate, when I didn't have to look them in the eyes. I usually liked full control and there's no denying I liked it rough but this was so, so different. I wanted to make it last, I wasn't just going to go as fast as I could and leave, I wanted to take my time, to savour her, to love her how she deserved. 

Having her on top of me like this was so fucking hot, I was completely turned on and there was nothing on the planet that I would ever want more. She had slowly started to move her hips against me in small circular movements as we kissed and I'm pretty sure she wasn't even aware she was doing it but I was because it was driving me fucking crazy.

"Baby" I whispered between kisses. Her fingers tugged at my roots gently, another thing that drove me fucking crazy although she knew I liked it I don't think she knew exactly how much. My hands ran up and down her sides and although she was only in a tshirt and her underwear it still seemed like too much material between us. "This is coming off" I announced before grabbing the bottom of the tshirt and yanking upwards, discarding it on the floor somewhere. 

The mix of everything has my head spinning like I'm high, her soft moans of pleasure, the way we're both panting, our hot breath mixing together as we kissed, her soft skin against mine and the way she's grinding against me and teasing the fuck out of me. There's no way I could handle much more, I was already rock fucking hard and I feared I would come in my boxers like a schoolboy. 

Just like she had I flipped her back over, I needed control back. I wanted to make her feel a pleasure like she's never felt before. With one arm to prop me up I used the other to cup the side of her face as I kissed her, one, two, three times before moving to her neck. I use my hip and my knee to gently push her legs apart and I bring my hips down to hers where my cock presses lightly against her heat and I know by the way she wriggled and moaned that she felt it and liked it too. 

"So beautiful" I remind her as I make my way down her torso leaving little pink marks like a road map. "I'm going to make you feel so good baby" When I got to the band of her underwear I hook my fingers into them and look up at Em. "Can I?" I ask for permission. "Words" I remind her when all she does is nod. 

"Y..yes" She panted. And of course I took no time at all to pull them off and throw them away too. I run my hands up and down both of her legs for a moment, just admiring her beautiful body that lay before me. 

"Fucking hell Ember, you're so perfect" I lightly touch my fingers over her most sensitive spot and I can already tell she's eager. "So wet already for me baby" I circle my fingers on her clit and she moaned and I swear my dick heard it because it twitched, I wanted nothing more than to be buried deep inside her but I had to take it slow. 

All of a sudden it was like I couldn't handle it anymore, my body took over leaving my brain a couple steps behind, I needed to taste her. I attached my mouth to her, running my tongue up her core and she arched her back and moaned my name which only made me hornier, if that was even possible at this point. I worked away at her sweet sweet bundle of nerves and slowly I started using my finger to bring her even more pleasure as I pumped it in and out of her and used my tongue at the same time. Her fingers tugged at my curls and she wriggled around, soft moans escaping her lips.

"Ah fucki...." She stopped herself and I feared I had done something wrong, I pulled away and looked at her face, she had her hand clamped over her mouth. I was confused for a second but then I remembered.

"No please don't be embarrassed baby, I wanna hear you. let me hear how good I'm making you feel" I pleaded with her and she removed her hand. "You don't need to feel embarrassed around me, ever okay?" She nodded and smiled and I carried on. I used two fingers this time and pretty soon I could tell by the whimpering and moaning and the way she was jerking around that she was close. "That's it my love, let it go" I coax her and with a couple more pumps, a few more swipes of my tongue and it pushes her over the edge. I felt her tense up and then she released all over my fingers and it was the hottest fucking thing I've ever witnessed. "Beautiful baby" I kissed her lower stomach. I leant over to retrieve a condom from the bedside draw.

"Are you still sure?" I looked into her eyes.

"Yes, I want this H" She replied and I tore open the foil packet and rolled the condom onto myself. I dragged the tip up and down her core, coating it in her own fluids from her earlier orgasm.

"If It's too much, if you need to stop please..."

"H be quiet" She cut me off and I was a little shocked. "I want this okay? Please stop asking if I'm okay because I am, I'm completely okay. I know I'm safe with you now please put your dick in me"

"Woah, dirty words baby" I chuckled. "As you wish" I lined myself up with her entrance and slowly inch by inch I pushed inside of her. She was so fucking tight it was making my head spin and I had to close my eyes, only when I was bottomed out and fully inside of her did I slowly open them. "Fuck- oh shit, baby are you okay?" My whole body stiffened when I took a look at her and one lonely tear rolled down the side of her face.

"I'm..okay" She grimaced. Shit, I didn't want to hurt her and I was doing just that. 

"I'm sorry, I'll just stop I don't want to hurt-" She grabbed my arms to stop me as I went to pull out.

"Don't. I'm okay" She tried to reassure me but I wasn't convinced. "Yeah it feels... a little weird and kinda painful but a good pain"

"A good pain? Like getting a tattoo?"

"Like getting fucked for the first time" She hit back and I couldn't help but laugh. "Now please just move, do something cause this is kinda weird" I slowly bought my hips backwards and then pushed forward as she gripped onto my arms. My body was wanting to take over and have complete control over something it's done hundreds of times but my brain had to be in control this time so I could make sure. "You can... go a little....a little faster" I obliged picking up the pace a little bit, rocking back and forward into her. 

This, right here, right now was pure euphoria, I had never felt like this with anyone before. I was my most vulnerable, the closest I've ever been to anyone and it was pure bliss. I knew I wasn't going to last much longer, it all seemed like not enough and too much at the same time. 

"You feel so good baby, so fucking good" I could tell she was getting there too and all it took was a few more thrusts and I was a goner. "I'm gonna finish baby, do it with me. Come for me" I urged. Our foreheads pressed together as she came undone underneath me, the most beautiful sounds escaping her lips and that send me to my high, my orgasm spilling into the condom inside of her. "Jesus I love you" I panted kissing her a couple times before collapsing down on the bed beside her. 

A/N: Yay! They finally did the dirty ;)