REMIND HER HER REMINDER

LEGEND GIGGS

I turned a year older love.Ian Kanyoro had your name on his jersey...He said hes here for you and he meant it...
I was so happy yet i still broke down cos i was happy without you .
Its so hard managing all this emotions that troll up my throat like torture.
I stayed up again cos I felt shitty and I missed you a lot .
I kissed the infinity tattoo cos I wanted to cut my wrist.
I still think about you like you never left then it hits me ....That the government took you away from me .
I want to cry but I can't .
I want to die ,I wish I could .
All I want is to be with you .
I'd commit suicide I swear ....
It's only that I'm not sure that that path would lead me to you .
Now I have to wait for my appointed death date
I hope it's sooner
I pray every night that we meet

I had Mikey and Adrian too ...Tracey also pulled up .....Khalifa and many others ...
We had a full house !!!
I'm so happy how they all love you really ...
We took shots on your heroic death

"Pure happiness "
Surprised me with a party too ...the blending was so wonderful.......
But now my head is heavy ....as heavy as my eyes ....
I can't find sleep ...All I want is weed
Just to numb the thoughts flashing real hard ....
Just to take me in another zone
Just to give me some break from all that's happening
Just to balance tears and be at ease
But again I want you
You are all that I want

When does it start feeling better ?
When will it feel better ?
Shall I ever get better ?

Today I looked at my wrist and I thought "what happens when I grow older and start a family with a strange man that ain't you ,eh...."
And all that hit my mind is ;I'll tell my kids about you Giggs ...
That it would have been you
Cos infinity it was
And we stood by that word

Lord knows how much I love you
How much I miss you

I still feel how warmly you embraced me
That day before they took you away
How jovial I was to see you after quite a while

I still remember when we diverted paths in the streets and I couldn't see you!
Did you look for me
?
Cos I looked for you all over
Until I received the news

That they killed you

I still remember the last night we spent together....
How I fell in love w you Giggs
When we sang songs all night
Played games and ofc got down to it.

I had to note it down on my diary ...
That I had a great night w you

Now I think about you
I'm filled with memories
Oh what is life ?

To live is to die
But Ashford Githui doesn't agree with me
But I know I'm right
I'd say cut the small talk
.....enjoy every moment before it turns to memories

The reward of love is grief
My award feels bigger than ever
You know why ??

Cos I fell in love with you
I gave you my whole heart and so did you

And truly it feels good to love somebody and somebody loves you back ...
It was never a one sided love

I was telling Emmanuel Mukonga about true love
That it does exist
Because I met you
You made me realize that there is true love
Cos we were true
Till the last day
Till today
224!!

Now I'm getting sleepy
I want to get to bed and sleep the whole day maybe
Cos I'm tooo exhausted to talk to people
I just want to distant myself but it's hard with Tina Dee and Dalvin here
They'd want to see me okay
But for me to be okay I need to be alone for a min

I want to go for swimming high as fuck
Maybe smoke at the rooftop
Or maybe go for a walk high as hell

I'm also so horny
I just finished my periods but my brain hasn't detected much of the horniness in me
Instead
It's reading how deeply I crave your touch ........
It's passing out strange vibes ....

I sometimes feel your presence
I'd also hear your voice
I'd imagine you hugging me
Or maybe you smiling at me

And I smile
And I wish I was so sure about it

Maybe we should have switched...
Cos love i would trade my life for you
And I'd pray you heal

When I was told you didn't make it
God knows how much I didn't want to see the light the next day
I just hoped to die that night

I lost all strength
I was weak as hell
I just wanted  to not wake up
But I did
And every day I do
And I sit and try reboot my sick mind
That I have to keep going without you
As hard as it is

Did you see how Kanyoro Ian played your part? .......
I really felt your presence for sure on that night ...
So much of it ...
Surprisingly I slept on his side when I got drunk ...
Still I cried on his arms as he calmed me
He got the first cake of all your friends
Not even Mikey
I only pointed him first
He made me so happy
So so happy
I'd read Tata on his back and I'd smile
I'd look at him and say Oh heavenly sent
I'd whisper to myself "God bless this kind soul "
I'd whisper several times cos he played the hardest part and he played it good
He was himself yet he made me feel I was with you
Calmly he managed all his traits and your traits

Yesterday Dalvo was listening to Juice WRLD cos he was heartbroken ....his girl broke up w him and damn she did my boy a big damage.....
I came to check on him at the sitting room , he was asleep but the songs kept playing
And I read
" legends never die"
And I smiled
Cos i know you are alive!