BL ONESHOTS No.5

¹⁸⁰😭San x Ray

"Ray, I can't do this anymore," San said, his voice shaking with anger and heartache. "I can't keep pretending that everything is okay between us."

"What are you talking about?" Ray retorted, his tone filled with frustration. "We've been together for three years, San. We've been through so much, why are you suddenly pulling away?"

"It's not sudden, Ray," San snapped, his hands clenched into fists at his sides. "I've been feeling this way for a while now. I just couldn't bring myself to say it."

"Why?" Ray demanded, his voice rising. "Why didn't you tell me? We could have worked through it together."

"Work through what?" San scoffed, his eyes flashing with anger. "Your constant lies? Your constant need for attention from anyone but me? I can't take it anymore, Ray. I can't keep pretending that I'm okay with being second best."

"That's not true," Ray protested, his voice breaking. "You know how much I love you, San. I would never do anything to hurt you."

"Then why do I constantly catch you flirting with other guys?" San yelled, tears streaming down his face. "Why do you always prioritize your friends over me? I can't keep living in this constant state of insecurity and doubt."

Ray's face fell, the realization of his wrongdoings hitting him hard. "I never meant to make you feel that way, San. I thought you trusted me."

"I did," San replied, his voice now filled with sadness. "But trust can only take so much before it crumbles under the weight of betrayal."

"Please, San," Ray pleaded, taking a step closer to him. "I promise I'll change. I'll do anything to make this work."

But it was too late. San had already made his decision. "I'm sorry, Ray. I can't keep pretending that our relationship is healthy. We're not good for each other."

And with those words, San turned and walked away, leaving Ray standing there alone, his heart shattered into a million pieces.

The once loving and happy relationship between the two had turned into a toxic mess, leaving both of them broken and hurt. Sometimes, love is not enough to save a relationship, and that was the harsh reality for Ray and San.

As San walked away, Ray felt the chilly air wrap around him, accentuating the emptiness left behind by his partner's departure. He reached out a hand, desperate to hold onto something that was slipping away. "San, please wait! Just hear me out!"

San paused mid-step but didn't turn around. "What's there to say, Ray? You've made your choices. I've made mine. I'm done."

Ray swallowed hard, trying to steady his breath. "I never wanted it to come to this. I thought we were stronger than petty arguments and misunderstandings."

"Stronger? Look around you, Ray." San turned, his eyes glistening like glass. "This isn't strength. This is you continuously crossing the line and expecting me to shrug it off. You treat every promise like it's an option, and I'm tired. I deserve more than leftovers."

"San, you're not leftovers. You're everything to me," Ray insisted, his voice filled with desperation. "I've been a fool, I know that now. But I swear, I'll change. I'll show you how much I care!"

San's expression tightened, the hurt radiating from his expression cutting deeper than any knife. "Change? You keep saying that, but words are just words unless you back them up with actions. It's too late for promises. I need someone who values me as much as I value them, not just when it's convenient."

"But I love you!" Ray exclaimed, the weight of his emotions washing over him. "Isn't that worth fighting for? Can't we try just one more time?"

For a moment, San hesitated. Ray's heart raced as he saw a flicker of doubt in San's eyes. But it quickly faded as he shook his head. "I've fought for us, Ray. I've given everything I had, and where did it get me? Standing here in tears because I feel invisible in my own relationship."

"I don't want you to feel that way! I want to change! I want us to be happy again," Ray pleaded, stepping forward, but San took a step back, shaking his head.

"I don't think you can understand how it feels to be alone in a partnership," San said quietly, his voice cracking. "I see you, Ray, but you don't see me. You need to realize that love shouldn't feel like a battle, and I refuse to fight for your attention any longer."

The silence stretched between them, heavy and suffocating. Ray felt like he was grasping at smoke, trying to hold onto something intangible. "San, I-"

"Goodbye, Ray," San interrupted, his tone now resolute. "I hope you find what you're looking for, but I can't be part of this facade anymore."

And with that, San turned away, his footsteps echoing in the silent void left between them. Ray watched him go, a mix of sorrow and regret churning inside him.

He slumped down onto a nearby bench, his mind racing. "What have I done?" he muttered to himself, staring blankly at the ground. The realisation that he had pushed away the one person who made his world feel completely crashed over him with the force of a tidal wave.

As the sun began to set, painting the sky in shades of purple and orange, he felt the weight of the loss settle onto his shoulders. He had allowed distractions and his hunger for validation to overshadow the love they once shared.

"Maybe I'll never understand what I had until it's gone," he whispered into the fading light, a statement more for himself than the world around him.

In the distance, he could see San walking away, growing smaller and smaller until he became just another shadow of a memory that would haunt Ray for a long time to come.

[No.18. Bye now.]