So Far Yet So Close | HVL Fanfic

(18) Do You Think Of Me?

MARCH 30, 2024
AROUND 6AM

LILIA'S POV

I'm in my room, flopping on my bed while staring at the ceiling. My headache just stopped a minute ago. It went away because of my thoughts.

It's the start of Sweet Sixteen. I should've been in New York with my teammates if I hadn't gotten into an accident. Not to mention, I wouldn't be able to see Van Lith. I miss her. But that's my fault too. I haven't been talking to her. In fact, I've been avoiding her. I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. I am confused more than ever. I love Gaia. I love Van Lith, too. There are too many problems in my mind right now. At this point, I'm better off dead.

I really won't see Van Lith unless I have a dangerous idea.

And I do.

I know my doctor said that I should rest and recover, but I don't do that. Healing is not my thing. My thing is risk until my body just gives up. I tried to reach for my phone. And here comes my headache again. It made me dizzy. These are the times when I need someone's help. Except that my friends offered, but I declined because I am convinced I can be independent.

I close my eyes for a while, so the dizziness can go away. When it went away, I reached for my phone and called the group chat with me, Elton, Kellan, Gaia, and Jewel on messenger. They all, except for Kellan, answered.

ELTON: Hi, what's up!

GAIA: Hello!

JEWEL: Ano meron? [What's going on?]

"Let's all go to the MVP Arena in New York today. I'll buy the tickets. Let's watch the basketball game." I requested.

JEWEL: Can't. I'm busy.

ELTON: Girl??? You're not supposed to be alone right now, let alone go to a different place?

GAIA: True. You should be resting and recovering.

ELTON: Right. Sorry, Lils. We can't.

I groaned at their replies. "Fine. If none of you are coming with me, then I'll go alone." I angirly said and ended the phone.

Honestly, what is wrong with them? Why do they keep insisting that I should stay in? The worst I'm dealing with right now is a headache. That's not even a big deal. They're acting like I'm on drugs and that I'll hallucinate in the middle of the day.

I got out of bed to get ready. The moment I stood up, I got the headache again. The room started to spin. Slowly at first, then it went faster. I tried to take a step slowly until I reached my closet. I leaned in on the wall to calm my head down. When the dizziness disappeared, I picked my clothes. I was just about to go inside the bathroom, but the ringing in my head started. I hate this. I covered my ears for a while and waited for it to go away.

After I took a warm shower, I started packing my clothes. I was serious when I said I'm going.

Then, I heard a knock from the front door. I went over and opened it. It revealed my two nursing friends with their backpacks. "What's that?" I asked.

"We figured out that we'll join you into going to New York." Gaia said as Elton nodded. "We can't leave you alone." Elton added.

I gestured them to come in my dorm, and they sat on the living room area. "Listen. No one should know about this." I told them. They nodded. "I'll pack quickly."

"We'll help you." Gaia volunteered. And I know my situation isn't that good, so I let them.

After we packed, I ordered our plane tickets and headed our way to the airport.